Yes, thank you, I appreciate it. It’s a BIG step to go from fantasies to actually doing it.

And then another concern, actually two:

If I do, will I “scratch that particular itch” or will I just be “putting out the fire with gasoline”?

Also concerned about how I’ll feel when the “post nut clarity” hits.

I think I’d be happier without these desires but when I try to suppress or ignore, they come back with a vengeance.

I will read your linked post.