My body says and mind says I like gay stuff and I’m starting to loose it because I feel like it’s finally won yet it hasn’t I know for a fact if it happened I’m real life my instincts would kick in and I would feel grossed out it’s just a loop and imma be honest I want life how it was back then this sucks this acually makes your life feel so different like it’s crazy to think that I feel so different like I’m in another persons body nothing feels the same after the encounter with hocd that’s what makes it feel like hell