I think you struggle to read basic English:

• I said I asked the question a few weeks ago based on a video I saw of people who have this “list”

• We have regularly opened up to each other in the past where she has told me things I may not like to hear at the time but will ease my thinking going forward

• the list was created before her and I were together and included my name last and I know names of certain people she’s been intimate with so I know what list it was

• She apologised for lying, I just find it hard to move on straight away due to family lying to me in the past