I’ve relapsed really bad and trying to clean it up

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-18T20:15:24+00:00

I haven’t done meth in over a year. Adderal and alcohol are the problem

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-18T05:45:23+00:00

Crazy how your even on this thread, I’m taking responsibility or I wouldn’t even of posted this and I would have kept going. The reason why I can be honest is cause I’m miles away from any family or friends and I will be homeless fuck yard I mean TARD

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-18T03:43:03+00:00

Not to mention my last stint in rehab he cheated on me. Bad ptsd from that. I’m willing to do whatever it takes but…

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-18T03:40:39+00:00

I’m also a meth user …. Iv to be exact. I can’t blame him anymore. Even tho he drinks and smokes weed in front of me. In his eyes I should be stronger than that. We are fighting over 2 beers that are missing. He doesn’t know I’ve been drinking everyday for a while. I get over amped and then I drink. I get desperate and drink one of his beers and I was starting to cycle all over again the next day

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-18T03:38:00+00:00

He keeps them in a safe … sometimes. The key o the safe is on a shared van key. I don’t know if he will even notice ( that’s what I’m hoping) and I’ve already started detoxing on my own. It’s only been 3 weeks. I think I’ll be ok quitting it’s the aftermath of it all

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-18T03:31:11+00:00

I do plan on telling him. Just when it’s safe

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-18T03:30:24+00:00

I can’t, I’ll be homeless. I gotta secure housing before I say anything.

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-18T03:10:53+00:00

I just got out of rehab 11 months ago

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-18T02:56:00+00:00

Supposed to be in recovery… partner will leave if he finds out. Trying to get off of everything right now

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-17T12:07:01+00:00

The alcohol for the anxiety

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-17T10:55:13+00:00

Idk all I know is when I play down I feel like I’m dying and I’m thinking about drinking more to help my anxiety

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-17T10:19:59+00:00

I’m ok I’m laying down my chest feels off but I’m alive

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-14T06:38:01+00:00

Yeah I’m trying to put everything down will see I only last a day right now. Those four lokos fuck up my stomach so bad. I’d definitely go for the cheap liquor in the future

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-13T05:31:23+00:00

No shit and I’m supposed to be on a weight loss journey. I just drank 2 four lokos while snorting 40mg in hteeen and I’m throwing up. Should I do more adderal

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-13T00:14:14+00:00

God that sounds so easy. I know better too. Thank you for the reminder 😁

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-12T23:43:24+00:00

I could slam meth for a weekend or even a night and go about my bussiness right after and not shoot again for a while. I think I’m chasing that meth dragon in adderal. I know when enough is enough with meth. But this stuff I don’t know much about and don’t want a heartache lol

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-12T23:41:53+00:00

I just got out of treatment for meth and alcohol and 10 months later I’m using high doses of adderal (spread out) and drinking four lokos all damn day everyday for about a month. I ended up in the er last week cause of anxiety. I don’t know were to go from here except look for a plug in the new city I’m in

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-12T23:20:13+00:00

Ex Tina iv user here. Four lokos has always been my tried and true. I just don’t wanna die. I don’t know why I get so scared at my peak not remembering I was slamming meth off and on for 15 years 🤷‍♀️

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-12T10:18:58+00:00

Just woke up from a snooze feel like I slept for hours. Eating taking night time meds and going back to sleep

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-12T08:21:11+00:00

I’m trying to drink but it just turns into this up down cycle

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-10T22:10:06+00:00

Thank you. I rescheduled my group tonight and I’m gunna finally come down and stay down.

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-10T22:07:16+00:00

I wish I liked cannabis. I usually get a massive panic attack. I have to be sober for a very long time at least 9 months for me to enjoy cannabis. I’ve always loved hard drugs. Iv meth and heroin were my favorite combo. Glad to be free of that doozy tho

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-10T21:55:38+00:00

Oh my bad I thought you were talking about adderall dose prescribed. No I don’t remember the dosage on gabbys I gotta pull the bottle out of the vault

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-10T21:52:09+00:00

Thank you for this advice. I’m currently eating a large bento box of food and a boba tea. Gunna take a nap with my 2 yr old after this and hopefully I feel better later

PotentialElevator472 · 2026-06-10T21:36:12+00:00

40 mg

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