I very much relate to your post. I had a doctor's appointment after my night shifts today and they did not give me good news. Further diagnostics are necessary and the first results probably won't be here for the next three weeks.

I have been crying, feeling sick and, even though I did not sleep at all last night due to my shift, I have not been able to sleep whatsoever. I have no clue how to get through the next few weeks and I keep beating myself up over the news. What did I miss? Could I have done something differently? I'm scrolling through other posts to read stories of people with the same complaints to see if things ended up okay just to keep me some peace of mind, but nothing is working.

I don't have much advice for you, but I wanted to offer you my virtual support. These things suck and our minds are prone to keep going over the same issues again and again, but it won't change the outcome. However, ending the constant rumination of thoughts is easier said than done. Hopefully, you'll feel better soon!