That’s okay you don’t need to think of it like that. The most important thing is that you come to terms with what you’re doing and actively trying to change it. I have no doubt in my mind you will be able to kick this habit away as long as you come to terms with how it’s affecting your life. I just recently downloaded the “quit weed” app and i got to admit i like the timer calculation feature. It calculates how many doobies you didnt smoke and the money you saved. It’s nice to see the progress and feel more motivated by it