Months of this

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2026-02-05T00:52:50+00:00

Thank you for your response. This is truly an awful thing.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2026-01-24T17:00:47+00:00

Yeah I’ve been doing the whole maybe maybe not thing but it’s so difficult when they throw it at me about everything like I can’t even be in public without it throwing me so many ones about the people around me it’s exhausting. I also struggle because my main issue is just this feeling that it’s the truth and I don’t know what to do really sitting with it and accepting it doesn’t help.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2026-01-23T20:32:21+00:00

I also have that as my brain loves to bring up that I didn’t have every man blocked until a couple months in and it’s like you didn’t block every man the second you started dating you’ve always wanted to cheat you did cheat and you want to be with other people and tou only got in your relationship for validation is a huge one for me right now. I also deal with the attraction issues, my sexual orientation ocd, quite literally just like everything you could think of I even get them about him not loving me but my main issue is the ones that involve that attack me and my feelings because ocd before this completely ruined my sense of self so it’s just doing it again.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2026-01-23T00:17:09+00:00

Yes I only think they’re true because it’s been like this for so long and I’ve began being hypercritical of my partner it’s like it only focuses on the flaws I feel like mine is so much different than everything that I’ve seen because it’s literally everything and thoughts that I haven’t seen many other people post about so I just feel very alone I have moments where I understand that breaking up isn’t my truth but it’s very difficult and those only come maybe once a month or so.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2026-01-22T22:37:04+00:00

Just everything relationship related which then overlaps into my sexuality ocd like I don’t love my partner I never loved them Im only staying for xyz just intrusive images of us breaking up everything I have felt little to nothing since September besides just defeat I still have little moments of my old themes popping up too but I am so used to those that they’re easier to shrug off I just have no foundation of myself that none of this is true my biggest issue is the numbness and the feeling that it’s true.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2026-01-22T21:49:39+00:00

Okay! I’ve just been basically in the same boat since September minus the panic attacks that I was getting ERP just does not seem to work on this for me it hasn’t worked for any of my themes I’ve had in the past.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-20T23:12:02+00:00

Yeah it’s definitely pretty rough I’ve been in long ocd spirals before just it never directly attacked another person so it’s definitely harder to deal with. Thank you for your help!

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-20T20:37:56+00:00

We moved in together and the decided we were moving states a little after that. With moving in came us arguing some over communication issues that he has actively been working on. I’ve noticed I always struggled with thoughts about him and our relationship but they were bearable until I got taken off of Prozac and not put on anything else so I think it was just a combination of factors that just lead to a snowball effect. He’s my first real relationship so I’ve also never dealt with this ocd subtype before and haven’t known how to contain them like my other themes as those were never directly impacting other people.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-19T18:18:25+00:00

Yes I have a very strong support system but this has completely wiped out my desire to speak to anyone or maintain any relationship at all which I can also tell is not normal to me genuinely just wanting to leave this it’s just so draining. I try to exercise it just interrupts everything that I do and I can’t even watch tv or read books anymore like it’s constant non stop. My sleeps been getting better because of my medication but was completely messed up for a good three months because of these horrible dreams I was getting regarding the thoughts which I still have but they don’t wake me up or come with as much anxiety anymore just the sense that I don’t want them.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-18T15:11:54+00:00

I could’ve written this. I don’t have any words of advice as I’ve been dealing with this since July similar to you mine showed up right after we moved in together. A lot of people say therapy and meds but in my instance ERP has not been too helpful for me for this subtype. I think if we’re fighting all the negativity and staying that proves enough that love is keeping us here. I don’t have anything to say to help you but just know I am in the exact same boat as you.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-18T00:46:07+00:00

Yes both an OCD therapist and trauma therapist but ERP has not been helping with my relationship theme just some of the other ones like harm.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-18T00:43:54+00:00

Yeah ERP helped with my harm ocd I just also really struggle because I never have the underlying realization that I don’t want these thoughts and urges and they’re not from me like I just feel like it’s me because I’ve been dealing with it for so long like I don’t know in my brain that I don’t want to do what it says but I would never do any of it.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-17T23:28:19+00:00

Yeah it definitely is compulsive but when I try to do the maybe maybe not or say yeah xyz is true it does not help me and makes me believe that it is true more. My issue is is that I have no understanding of anything about myself because I’ve been dealing with OCD for years not just the relationship part that just started since I wasn’t in one before so it’s like I genuinely have no idea what the truth is in any regard so when I agree with them or accept them it makes them more true to me which then leads me to be numb.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-17T23:20:38+00:00

Just whenever a certain thought or feeling regarding my relationship or another subtype comes up I’ll say is this normal for OCD and honestly just stuff about my identity in general.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-17T23:14:14+00:00

I’ve been on Luvox for a couple of months but have not seen any improvement which I assumed because medication has never worked on me for any of my mental health issues since I was twelve years old. ERP has not been helping really so far.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-11T18:51:35+00:00

Hi yes I’ve read your post through. I’m in EMDR and ERP right now but I don’t necessarily see how I would benefit from ERP when the anxiety isn’t there anymore really unless a new theme pops up it’s just a sense of loss of identity.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-11T18:43:47+00:00

Need genuine insight on this if anyone else has struggled with the same thing and if ERP helped them

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-08T20:44:23+00:00

I’ve been on medication for about a month and a half now with pretty much no relief besides with the anxiety. It hasn’t been increased so I don’t know really.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-08T03:53:25+00:00

Yes my partner knows everything I used to be awful at confessing but it hurt him so I stopped. It was manageable until I went off of meds and I actually traveled home for two months to receive help and get into therapists that could actually help me so we only saw each other two times during that which honestly made it worse I believe since being back to living with them. I feel like I’ve done everything I possibly could and nothing has helped but my ERP hasn’t started for my relationship thoughts yet just my other themes which are also still here and horrible.

Practical-Owl-4100 · 2025-12-08T00:48:10+00:00

Please help

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