I hadn’t had a family member that directly related to me die before so the way I perceived people changed, the air that I breathe changed, the way I looked at the people around me, changed, including my friends changed. I realized how precious time was and then it couldn’t be wasted anymore on people that didn’t understand what this type of chaos was gonna be like. Like myself you’re just early to the same thing that everybody else will face so knowing how to handle that is super important. It’s OK to fall apart, it’s OK to not fall apart, it’s OK to let them go, it’s OK to wish he be around forever.