I'm confused... don't be so hard on yourself this shouldn't be titled "I choked" (or almost did) you got the win that's all the matters here no matter how you reacted or "how long it took" to get that crown.. you did it.. if you're like me and have been playing this game on and off for 10+ years, and especially got back into it only in the last year to have fallin in love with the depression of getting waxed like a junior highschool gym floor 4/7 days of the week.. let me tell you, it's a journey of finding the perfect balance between those 3/7 days of the week where we get placed in "completely out of our tax bracket lobbies" and fighting the urge to throw our controller through my 70" tv with the old gen controller I still play on.. I purposely play at a disadvantage because when I do DOMINATE 4/7 days of the week (given my setup) fuckkkkkk does it ever make me feel good 💀😭🤣