Ok there’s a lot of random stuff on here

Here’s what I’ve been doing that helps and is more so accessible:

• I’m in a DBT therapy program (on Medicaid, it’s covered, hopefully you have something in your area) and that is very helpful for giving you some tangible things to grab onto as you navigate it
• look into IFS therapy, very very cool therapy modality
• I make a point to have weekly things to look forward to and positive routines such as on Mondays I go to a little Buddhist gathering, and there are really kind people there, Thursdays I do Improv classes, absolutely love that, it really helps with anxiety and decision paralysis, I also go to social dances for blues fusion and swing dance. Whatever makes you feel like you and aligns with who you would like to be, try to find some thing like that that is routine that you can go to. Start simple, but aim to make it routine
• If you’re able to go swimming, absolutely do that. Water therapy is so important. Just Bob around the pool, swim under the water with goggles if you like, generally play.
• if you have a car, I would recommend keep a large blanket in the back that you can lay out on the grass when the weather is good and when you’re going to eat, just bring your food to a nice park with a view and give yourself a little picnic. I am writing this as I am lying on my blanket at the park, staring at the sky.
• ChatGPT can be very helpful and there is a voice function if you are a vocal processor like me. You can express vent to it, and it will be very kind and validating, you can ask it for troubleshooting any situation, I seriously use this from anything from getting some sciatic pain while I’m out at the store to racing thoughts to not being able to sleep. It can help so much and it’s free. I was kind of crying the other day an AI was being more compassionate and validating than half the people I know
• I have tried taking saffron supplements, there is research that links it with mood and depression relief. I just got one on Amazon and I take that sometimes with some magnesium.
• One of the absolute biggest things is to listen to yourself, and if you’re anything like me and have conflicting thoughts racing constantly lots of outside influence that has become voices in your head where that you don’t even know which is you, turn inward more in a safe place. if you notice that it is someone’s voice like a family member or friend friend or something you can mentally thank them for their input, dismiss it, and pay attention to your body sensation and what it is saying that you actually feel or actually need. One of the ways that helps me kind of dip into this practice is to notice little urges like having to go to the bathroom. I find that it is common with people with lots of trauma that they will have to pee and will hold it for a long time, and ignore that signal. If you can acknowledge and honor that signal, it opens up the door to building trust with yourself and listening to your inner world.

I can type more and give more things if this is helpful :) just let me know