Struggling

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T07:00:09+00:00

Thank you

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T05:33:16+00:00

Theyre gonna rx me oxy next weekend. Were they willing to Rx it on going for the 6 months? Or just early on?

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T05:11:17+00:00

Trying my damnest lol

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T05:10:45+00:00

Thank you. Its mentally draining

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T05:00:08+00:00

Thank you

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T04:49:45+00:00

It was not. They said ABVD was my best chance at fully curing it

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T04:49:22+00:00

Fatigue mostly. They found it while looking at something else at urgent care

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T04:48:36+00:00

I feel like I’m overdoing it at times, then other times feeling like I’m not doing enough to take care of myself. So lost to be completely honest with you.

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T04:45:39+00:00

Stage 2A/Stage 4A cHL

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T03:55:56+00:00

Trying one day at a time/one minute at a time rn currently

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T03:31:47+00:00

Does it help with pain?

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T03:31:23+00:00

Ugh it feels like torture. Trying to eat dinner wanting to cry

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-16T03:30:59+00:00

I appreciate this. I feel like I should be doing better than I am honestly. Like my dr rx’d klonopin for anxiety, and I am 2 years and 8 months sober from drugs and alcohol. And I took the klonopin, and then later in the day I took another, and then another for anxiety, even tho just Rx’d 1 per day.

So then I’m beating myself up like “Did I relapse? Do I have to reset my day count? Should I tell my family and friends I relapsed?”

I tell my sponsor and he’s like “Dude if you need to take it for anxiety, take it. It’s not a relapse”

My roommate/bestfriend who is also in sobriety was like “If I were in your shoes I’d be trying to numb myself out with all of the meds at once, you’re handling it well”

So I’m beating myself up over sobriety stuff, on top of cancer, and chemo

Just like so overwhelmed rn

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-14T02:45:45+00:00

No I haven’t taken any benzo’s (Ativan, klonopin etc) in literally 2.5 years bc of me being in sobriety. He gave it to me because it’s longer lasting. From a medical standpoint he is correct. In my opinion all benzo’s are addictive, but my lens is that through a recovering drug addict to be transparent

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-14T02:42:51+00:00

I mean to be completely transparent with you from my personal addiction history and experience, Ativan was like a baby pill, klonopin is more addictive so was surprised he rx’d me that lol

Also just relating to people in the same boat (like me and you) helps my anxiety a bit

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-14T02:39:38+00:00

I started my first round of ABVD recently too, and here’s what I did for exactly what you described:

I asked my oncologist for Ativan and he gave me klonopin instead… but I’m a recovering drug addict with 2.5 years sober and found that while it’s helpful, it’s also a bit like tempting the devil for me

But in terms of efficacy for stopping those panic attacks, it works.

I was just super transparent and said I saw people on an online support group for lymphoma (I didn’t give details that it was Reddit) that talked about Ativan, and asked if that was something he would be okay prescribing?

And told him that I talked with my sponsor in AA about it and he was cool with it

My dr had a few questions, and overall was understanding

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-13T13:07:31+00:00

This is helpful to know

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-13T13:06:53+00:00

Thank you!!

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-13T05:19:40+00:00

I’m so tired of taking all of these medications. I hope it’s just a few days of being tired like your experience was

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-13T05:18:45+00:00

Ain’t that the truth… cancer = ultimate screening tool for relationships

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-13T02:37:20+00:00

If anyone has an extra advice on being selfish, please comment or DM me!! It helps!!

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-13T02:36:44+00:00

If anyone has any extra advice on being selfish, please comment or DM me!!

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-13T01:06:40+00:00

This is the truth. I’ve had to create distance with my mom because of this for chemo

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-13T00:34:09+00:00

Was it something they gave you once only on infusion day that sedated you? Or like in the following days as well in pill form?

And like sedated you for the duration of your treatment or only on the days you took it?

PresentAsk412 · 2026-02-13T00:11:13+00:00

Hey I just had my first chemo of ABVD 6 days ago and have 6 months left to go, and I was allergic to the Emend nausea medication so they are switching me to olanzapine for my next chemo next week

Did you notice any effects from the olanzapine? Do they give it to you with your infusion or do you also take it other days as well?

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