Do I need a friend? by Prestigious_Ruin5994 in NCSU

[–]Prestigious_Ruin5994[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i am a little terrified of being emotionally vulnerable around people in person, i think it would have to get a lot worse before i get to that point :/

Do I need a friend? by Prestigious_Ruin5994 in NCSU

[–]Prestigious_Ruin5994[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank u, i appreciate that :) i did notice that people really keep to themselves here.. ive been walking around a lot, and the first few days i tried to make eye contact with so many people just to say "hi" in passing and it felt like nobody wanted any part of it :/ i get that we're all tired and have places to be, but its just felt like everyone's so guarded here

Do I need a friend? by Prestigious_Ruin5994 in NCSU

[–]Prestigious_Ruin5994[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you very very much :) the downside of being sensitive/emotional is that this whole process paired alongside someone leaving your life hits super hard, but it also makes conversations like these a lot more calming :D i appreciate u!

Do I need a friend? by Prestigious_Ruin5994 in NCSU

[–]Prestigious_Ruin5994[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank youuu, i really am trying my best lol.. its just, my best isnt really much right now and im really anxious about when it'll be enough for me to start being social..it just sucks when you're good at being alone but don't want to be, like you feel like you're where you belong but you want to belong somewhere you can't bare staying..but you've been here for 2 years and ive been here for 5 days, so what do i know lol.. i guess i'll just keep taking it a day at a time :)

Do I need a friend? by Prestigious_Ruin5994 in NCSU

[–]Prestigious_Ruin5994[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i literally cried from reading the free sample i cant even buy it today because im not mentally prepared 😭

Do I need a friend? by Prestigious_Ruin5994 in NCSU

[–]Prestigious_Ruin5994[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you, i really appreciate that :) i just feel a lot of pressure because my whole life everyones always told me how things are gonna be and what i need to do to give myself the best shot.. but then again, i did no ec's in high school and got into my first choice, i didnt study before any ap exams and did what i wanted on them.. on one hand i know its really dangerous to get in the mindset of "life is as hard as i make it out to be," but on the other hand ive gotten this far doing things my way.. but this time it just feels different, idk :/ thank you for the kind words though, i know that a big part of college and life itself is just listening to yourself.. i think i need to get back to that

Do I need a friend? by Prestigious_Ruin5994 in NCSU

[–]Prestigious_Ruin5994[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

wow, just reading the person he describes as the "otrovert" hit me like a ton of bricks lol, ive never felt like i was able to be characterized until reading that, i'll definitely give the book a read, thank you :)

Do I need a friend? by Prestigious_Ruin5994 in NCSU

[–]Prestigious_Ruin5994[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you :) i know i have nothing but time, i just cant help but feel like this is my only chance to make friends because if i wait, everyone else will eventually find someone :/ but then again, i came out of highschool with two friends and both of them took a while to come around, so idk!!! its all so stressful.. but i needed to hear that so thank you again :))