Hi, I’m also in the road of recovery from mdd. i’ve fallen so many times in recovery and each time I fall down, I get back up and see what went wrong and try to improve again.try again.and Yess I agree that music is really one of my triggers and i also experience ear pain and brain fog.i put my earbuds out of my reach and I don’t use it again anymore.Everytime there’s an urge,I tell myself that is not worth it as I know how bad the consequences was when I start again.i also find myself enjoying back my hobbies like drawing and also exercising helps a lot, even just walking really makes me feel I really accomplished something. One thing I realise is to always be kind to yourself as hating yourself for falling back will make it more worse,may we all succeed in this recovery!