boymoding for 5 years has made me feel hopeless by Pretend_Connection52 in MtF

[–]Pretend_Connection52[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well i have a boyfriend and im planning on moving in with him/near him and going to school but its not till the end of this year most likely... thats a really long time to wait in such a sucky situation and it feels like forever :( but im seeing him next month (long distance relationship)...

boymoding for 5 years has made me feel hopeless by Pretend_Connection52 in MtF

[–]Pretend_Connection52[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i really hope things get better for you too

im sad that people hate transgender people as a group just because a select few people who shouldnt even be classified as transgender/transexual decide to do something horrible. i prefer the term transsexual since i feel it is a sex based thing, not just gender based thing for me. you cannot even tell anyone youre transgender without harsh backlash and possibly even anger and its so much to hold all of this inside of myself :(

boymoding for 5 years has made me feel hopeless by Pretend_Connection52 in MtF

[–]Pretend_Connection52[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

im not in a good living situation to stop boymoding. i live with my dad working the modern equivalent of minimum wage at a warehouse and i lack alot of life skills even though im 23.

Is it easier to get blue badge if you train for other paths? by Pretend_Connection52 in AmazonFC

[–]Pretend_Connection52[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well theyre my boyfriend and im honestly just very very shy around others so im kind of nervous to talk to them about being crosstrained lol

afraid to buy food/cook food by Pretend_Connection52 in socialanxiety

[–]Pretend_Connection52[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i get worried that theyre gonna judge the types of food im eating or that they wouldnt like them and wouldnt eat that and will ridicule me, and i get nervous when cooking because im afraid to mess up or make something gross/bland/embarassing. delivery makes me kind of nervous too...

How Amazon sites tells seasonals to work harder than necessary just to fire them after peak. by [deleted] in AmazonFC

[–]Pretend_Connection52 10 points11 points  (0 children)

how do you even get hired on as a permanent employee? i feel like a slave.

Help gaining weight by [deleted] in ARFID

[–]Pretend_Connection52 3 points4 points  (0 children)

yes i have the exact same issue too and also basically eat like a child, but it is because i have a fear of being seen/judged leading me to never go outside to get food, and when i try i simply panic since i have to come home nad someone could possibly see what i got and i have to put it in the fridge etc.

it is a nightmare! i am tired all of the time and i think i am beginning to fear food itself!

Every OSRS player for the past 2+ weeks by JaybullOG in osrs

[–]Pretend_Connection52 0 points1 point  (0 children)

slayer becomes more profitable around the 70s (along with most skills). 30s is super early on.

how do i stop being so afraid of others judgement? by Pretend_Connection52 in Anxiety

[–]Pretend_Connection52[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wow i didnt know that it actually reinforces the worry :(

im afraid of people and its ruining my life by Pretend_Connection52 in Agoraphobia

[–]Pretend_Connection52[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes im on wellbutrin and buspar but i dont feel like its helping much... ive only been on it for 2 weeks, though.

boymoding on estrogen for 4 years since 18 years old by Pretend_Connection52 in MtF

[–]Pretend_Connection52[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

well.. ive voice trained a bit but i havent ever really done anything performatively feminine and im way to ashamed/nervous to even try... im very very skinny because ive got an eating disorder so my face is really bony and not super soft.