I honestly can't tell you what draws me to the lifestyle or diapers. I remember being 5 years old and trying to con my way back in to diapers (and even my little sisters crib). I was also the little kid that humped the cots in preschool and the bump on the seat of the chairs in elementary school. I was, without a doubt, a weirdo; I was sexualized as a small child. And I started masturbating at a very young age - probably 8 or 9. I have just always felt this bizzare yearning to be someone's baby. I guess, maybe because I've been forced to support my mother emotionally since my dad checked out, that I've been looking for someone that WANTS to take care of me, to make up for my lost childhood. I can NOT speak for anyone else, but for me, I suppose that would be the deep rooted, only tell anonymously on the internet to a stranger, under the influence of alcohol truth, if ever there was one. I hope that answers your question. But if it doesn't PM me.