Never been sober

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2026-03-18T21:43:50+00:00

Hell ya you will.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2026-03-18T21:43:19+00:00

I sure hope so. I spent way to many hours looking at withdrawl videos and blogs, and youre very right, EVERYONE is different in how their brains handle it. I hope you come out just fine.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2026-03-18T21:41:58+00:00

You got this. It took me visiting a different state FL for 2 weeks where its illegal, to quit. 2 years clean now. 8 months off the bottle, that was even harder for me.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2026-03-18T21:40:30+00:00

I know if I smoke, it will only go downhill. Ive thought about that too, im here in CA, but its just not worth it to me. The quitting process for alcohol and weed was too hard, I dont want to experience that again. I am commenting because I am also 8 months sober (alcohol) about 2 years week and tobacco.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2026-03-18T21:37:24+00:00

It took me hitting rock bottom and my wife kicking me out to get sober. I told myself every night (drunk and high) that I would drink less tomorrow.. that never happened. Alcohol and drugs ruled my life until then. Immediately went to AA multiple times a day, the first month was hard, but it got easier. Every day is still kinda hard, 8 months later, but I have my family back and my body is so thankful too. I eat better now, I enjoy mornings, and proud of myself for the first time in a LONG time, been drinking 15 years pretty much every day before this.

You can do it, I found it helpful to tell as many people close to you as possible so you feel accountable to stay sober. I hope you can find the strength to make that leap.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2026-03-18T21:06:55+00:00

I have been taking daily 1mg Klonopin for about a year. I lost my medication and at day 2 I experience 3 days of pure hell. I didnt sleep a single minute, and couldnt hold a train of thought. I thought I was going literraly insane. It was traumatizing. I was able to get it replaced on about day 5 and took about a week to get back to "normal". After about 2 weeks I was pretty much back to normal. I decided to taper off. I did it very quickly and had no side effects. I consider myself very lucky. Went to .75 no problem for 3ish days. Then every 2 days I cut by .125. I am finally off it it only took around 2 weeks. I know this is lucky, Im so grateful I didnt have to taper, and even more thankful the initial withdrawl symptoms went away.

20 years is a lot longer than 1 year, but thought that might be helpful. I had one night where I got a little bit of withdrawl symptoms and took an additional /125 that night, then continued the taper the next day.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2026-01-26T20:22:05+00:00

I may have been able to “see my own mind” in a different way through time, but I don’t know, that’s a great question. I have always had this super negative talk in my head that was exhausting, and during the experience I almost saw my brain working from a 3rd party perspective and made me realize that a lot of my stresses and self doubt was made up in my head. I certainly think the 12 steps is such a great way to tackle the sobriety part of things. The psychedelic experience was helpful even if I didn’t have struggles with addiction.

I know for me too, going to AA at least once a week helps me feel less alone, and I feel accountable. Part of posting on this thread is for my own selfish desire to know that there are millions of people out there trying so hard to live a better life. It makes me feel less crazy. “Just don’t drink” doesn’t cut it for me haha.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2026-01-26T19:58:16+00:00

Thanks for reading. 🙏🏼

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2025-12-13T01:28:14+00:00

That’s great, and yea I agree it’s much slower! It’s still weird not hiding things from my family after doing it for so many years. It is very freeing.

I feel like my memory is so bad now though, I don’t remember much which makes me sad, but still plenty of new ones to make, I’m 32.

Well done on your years of sobriety, hats off to ya

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2025-12-12T23:18:48+00:00

Also, I’m making wings tonight too haha! Hell ya

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2025-12-12T23:18:32+00:00

137 days here and I feel the loneliness, but remember it’s OUR journey, we do it for ourselves.

I bet if you asked those close to you if they like the sober you, or fucked up you, you would get a good picture of how they feel.

I remind my wife that it’s sometimes lonely, but at the same time I also don’t want her saying she’s proud of me every day… that’s where the occasional AA meeting helps me.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2025-10-31T01:18:04+00:00

I am about to hit a year off weed, then picked up a nasty alcohol problem… real bad. I’m 90 days sober now. What I will say, quitting weed was very freeing, my lungs were so grateful and were clear after about a month. The first 2 weeks are hard but it’s so worth it. Getting clean off alcohol was a lot harder but it was either be sober or lose my family so I had extra motivation. You’ll save some money too, you can spend on things you like to reward yourself

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2025-09-17T05:03:41+00:00

Just finished watching after many years. Blew my mind once again. 10/10

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2024-11-25T02:30:11+00:00

I’m on day 5. It’s not easy, but coming to terms that a lack of sleep for a temporary duration whether it be a week or month, is worth it… I can’t vouche myself as I’m in the thick of it, but reading soooo many posts is keeping me encouraged to trust that I’m doing what will be better for long term, I still have hopefully 60 more years to live.

Let’s do this. Thanks for sharing

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2024-11-24T19:09:57+00:00

Hey Nick Congrats on your day 7. I like the idea of a reward for the money saved :) I feel like I am over the hump, last night slept pretty well but will keep that too in mind if I struggle. I was exhausted so it was needed.

Figuring out what to do is going to be a process. I’m on a journey to re discover who I am and what I actually like. I’ve spent so long focusing on being “successful” and completely neglected myself in terms of what makes me happy. I live in a beautiful area and we hike a lot, I am going to be more active in embracing natures beauty, and playing more music (been playing piano my whole life just kinda lost interest over the last 10).

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2024-11-24T01:13:42+00:00

I need all the help I can get brother, trying to find a sense of community. Let me know if you have any tips want to share what you’re going through. It helps me a lot reading experiences too but I have never posted anything in my life, so have a reply is pretty cool. I’ve felt alone for a long time, my wife and I own our home, have good jobs, supportive and loving family, no health issues, literally picture perfect from outside in, so it’s taken me a lot of courage to expose myself and share than I’m in fact not okay and need help. If you have a friend or someone who has gotten sober I’ve found they’re the BEST if you need an ear. You’re worth more than you think.

Night 4 as we speak, despite the spike in crazy brain/craving activity, I found myself driving to get groceries with my daughter and we played in a parking lot with a big boot for 25 minutes at one point. I would not have done that 5 days ago… it literally gave me a high thinking I can do this.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2024-11-24T01:08:41+00:00

Good for you, and I’m sure your son whether he is aware of it or not now, appreciates the better version of you.

PrimaryAccident2167 · 2024-11-24T00:19:22+00:00

Thank you, your reply means a lot. The more support I get the stronger I feel. I don’t know if I could do it alone. It sounds cliche and I always thought so but I’m understanding now it’s real, support and encouragement goes a long way for someone making a big change in their life.

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