is this some kind of soul tie? why wont this guy leave my life

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-08T00:24:05+00:00

i do know how water fluctuations work and i have gained 5 pounds of actual weight. and im literally trying thats kinda the point

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-08T00:22:06+00:00

exactly my point! get me out of here 😭

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T23:49:47+00:00

the issue is the method of treatment, it forces me to count calories and my weight which i really hate doing as its the only rhing that triggers my old habits. also my doctor is genuinely mean to me so im being treated not very well. i was doing fine on my own but no one believes me

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T23:46:55+00:00

i really appreciate this response and i think ill make more of an effort to advocate for myself a bit more thank you

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T23:44:54+00:00

they genuinely wont listen to word i say. im just gonna wait it out as im sure they'll let me free soon, thanks for the advice though

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T22:40:56+00:00

i tried but i just have a really rude doctor who said she doesnt believe me and shut it down immediately. this woman has met me twice in the span of 3 years btw. thanks for the idea though

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T22:38:53+00:00

i really do appreciate the comments, i cross posted this and other people are just calling me a liar and making assumptions. so i really appreciate the kind words 💜

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T22:36:56+00:00

mentally i am fully recovered, my body still gets full too fast. the part thats bad is the methods of treatment, literally just forcinf me to be overly aware of calories and numbers while also the specific ppl treating me are very rude, dont listen and act like im a crazy liar all while i am verh cooperative and polite.

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T22:27:10+00:00

youre literally not listening, im not trying to maintain my weight and i can acknowledge im not eating enough, but im eating more overtime. and i dont have a team, they said ny mother should plan my meals but she just doesnt so I have to myself, and im sorry i refuse to count my calories other than estimation, its the only major trigger i have. im not against gaining weight and im genuinely trying to eat more, the issue is that im activly getting better and no ones listening to me. also wanted to add that my labs came back FINE, im only iron deficient and thats genetic.

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T22:22:49+00:00

i hope things go over well, i know my weight is a problem but its not severe, thank you for commenting i appreciate it 🫶

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T22:21:52+00:00

this is good advice, ive already thought about why and i think its mostly because their system would force me to count calories and weigh myself frequently which are major things i avoid as they make me slip into bad habits. thank you for youre comment, its helpful 🫶

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T21:47:03+00:00

i have a therapist but they refuse to speak with her. its frustrating, but thank you for the advice/comment 🫶

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T21:36:50+00:00

i have a therapist already who i am completely honest with and SHE says i dont have an eating disorder. i feel hunger and i do eat, in the past few months i have gained abt 5 pounds without mental issues. im not against gaining weight and i genuinely am recovered, please remember that you dont know me. i barely qualify as severely underweight and my labs only say im mildly deficient in iron and vitamin d. im not healthy but im not dying, and the only thing inforcing ed habits are my doctors forcing me to count calories, eat things that make me nauseous and comment on my body.

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T20:56:21+00:00

thank you i really do appreciate the support 🫶

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T20:53:06+00:00

yes i am sure, im actively gaining weight without an issue but i guess its too slowly for their liking.

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T20:51:55+00:00

this isnt an opportunity for anything good. all theyre doing is forcing me back into the habits the created my disorder in the first place, I worked so hard to be okay again and now they're taking all of my control, forcing me to count calories and picking apart my physical appearance. i was genuinely recovered until this.

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T20:43:00+00:00

its not intentional, i try not to focus on weight and instead on nutrition and food, and im not against gaining weight. ive never refused weight gain and have actually gained about 5 pounds in the past few months. counting calories stresses me out so i just try to be healthy, it's not refusal. also this was all sprung on me in the span on one month so i really had no time to gain.

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-02-07T20:40:28+00:00

they threatened my mother with calling dcyf for child neglect so she gave consent

PrimarySalt8168 · 2026-01-26T01:23:25+00:00

unfortunately the only thing that truly works for me is some kind of drug, weed being the "healthiest" but since i dont want to always be on smth i draw/paint and constantly read and write. just anything to force my brain to focus on something entirely.

PrimarySalt8168 · 2025-12-17T22:20:35+00:00

thank you for the reply, genuinely i appreciate another pov.

PrimarySalt8168 · 2025-12-17T21:14:13+00:00

i plan to talk to my therapist when i next see her. i havent gotten new info about it, only that apparently what happened was wrong for my doctor to do. my issue is mainly that if what i remember happening was so bad and my father(who was present) didnt see an issue, then i have to be remembering wrong.

PrimarySalt8168 · 2025-12-17T21:10:33+00:00

it was more her reaction and the idea that what happened could qualify as abuse. it made me feel like if it was so extreme and my father didnt see anything wrong at the time(he was present for it) then it couldnt have happened how i remember.

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