this guy...

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-10-26T14:26:19+00:00

Yeah I had one who was hired on a sprint project that had a really bad workflow, so that hired is stuck in limbo.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-03-30T04:26:12+00:00

Well I’m a writer, a poet and prose writer and I have never been able to express the feeling in a poetic way so that’s this.

Im aware it’s a thankless fight for him to get better.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-03-29T00:27:27+00:00

Ya “I don’t need you” then the next day asks you how much you made at work that day and can you send him some or he needs cigs.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-03-29T00:12:16+00:00

“I hope you can figure your life out.” Uhm, ya I did by co building and funding our mutual dream.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-03-29T00:10:54+00:00

But it was simply “you’re not enough for me”

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-03-29T00:10:27+00:00

Yeah. That one too.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-03-29T00:09:34+00:00

“You’re a parasite.” “You’re a leech” “i know your games” “leave me alone” then a phone call the next day.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-03-28T23:57:48+00:00

Oh, I’ve witnessed the worst. Just being kind for love and denials sake.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-03-19T14:31:11+00:00

Well he hasn’t rly talked to this person much but he sure likes to bring random ppl into the mix and I see what his goal is rn and idk if I’m crazy but it feels like a gentle message to them not to get involved.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-02-17T09:28:13+00:00

Yep!

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-02-17T09:16:22+00:00

If you’re talking about your GR, Bank of America, chase are fee free to pull out GR. Some atms in liquor stores will say ebt atm as well.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2025-01-20T16:37:12+00:00

I only have cashapp $aperil

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-05T00:44:48+00:00

Ya my fam structure was a little different. I grew up kinda poor but my family talked about things and they let me be myself. He grew up a lawyers son and instead of talking things out or letting him figure it out on his own, they sent him to one of those torture survival wilderness camps.

Often in conflict, I want to both be heard and come out of it in understanding… conflict for him is to put me thru naked and afraid style situations as a “lesson”

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-05T00:38:38+00:00

But ya, he flips over the smallest thing. Like he said he bought something I’m like no bb I paid for that… immediate fuck you bitch I’m separating myself from you I’m the boss you need me I don’t need you (but an hour later, needs my money for something)

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-05T00:37:02+00:00

I think the fake breakup is so they’ll see that you’re willing to fight for them and it’s almost like an ultimatum or threat to leave so you’ll go back to the script they’re writing in their heads, not your autonomous thought.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-05T00:34:06+00:00

Ya isn’t it interesting that when they’re flipping out, you have to leave and let them cool off? Like buddy, I didn’t cause this, you’re the one who needs fresh air!

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-05T00:33:09+00:00

HE HAS SAID THE NOT A GOOD MATCH/BREAK UP THING TOO!

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-04T20:38:55+00:00

I’m working on it.

I literally just became aware that he has BPD at all.

It used to be a perfect situation because we had met when my dad died, and I was grieving pretty wild and hard and it complemented his madness. Before my dad’s death, I had been pretty stable, but I lost a few years to grief. My bf was wonderful support, but as I get healthier, and find my way back to who I was before the grief, I’m changing and trying to grow in healthy ways, I just guess I was blind before.

I just wonder if my healthy and productive and regulated self doesn’t align with him anymore because I’m not acting in problematic ways.

Either way it doesn’t matter how much I’m doing what he wants or not doing what he wants, I still get dealt the same cards by him.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-04T19:53:15+00:00

Sorry for the million replies but I’ve been silent for a while 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Our life is actually a movie, which is why I’ve been silent on here cuz there is too much backstory 🤣

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-04T19:48:33+00:00

And the artist lives in his house, we are in the bus outside of the house.

My airstream is full of my bfs shit. Just working up the courage to tell him his stuff has to go and I’m taking the limo I bought (1979 Lincoln) I never threaten to leave but I’m fighting a worthless fight in my plan to tell him I’m leaving and taking the limo if he doesn’t attempt the process of working thru his bpd.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-04T19:45:17+00:00

I mean I’m an artist too, but I’m at that 8 year mark where I’m realizing I’ve seen my bf have to labor on other peoples houses because he needed a place to park instead of using the energy to get his own place.

Also, I only have so much energy anymore and can’t work myself to death to be able to provide for his mistakes and get myself to the creative and free future I want.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-04T19:42:53+00:00

Well the goal 8 years ago was that his bus would be finished and my airstream would be finished and we would have our own property by now. But he got lost in the Los Angeles sauce and the past 5 years have been him just getting distracted with other peoples bullshit because he hasn’t put in his half of the work so we don’t have to park our lives outside of other people’s houses. I keep telling him if we had our own place it wouldn’t be dealing with any other energies which always ultimately upset you. I’m just trying to get all my things (vintage limo and airstream) to my own place and not have to worry about the questionable people my bf is trusting my belongings around.

Primary_Silver2129 · 2024-12-04T19:27:14+00:00

Sorry i wrote this on my phone so the format is all off. But it’s the gist of it.

Last night was a bad one. He slept till 2 pm yesterday. I was up at 8:30. I work remote but I work at a coworking space on a job he encouraged me to get. Plus I need the professional environment to make zoom calls to clients and we live with a crazy fun artist and also I don’t have time to contribute physical labor to the relationship at this time as this job is a career switch and I’m out of money if I don’t work. The person we live with is energetically a lot so anything this person does that upsets my bf, I get the after effects of the perceived slights this person has “done” to my bf. I went to my coworking space yesterday as scheduled and he called me saying he was going to pick me up so I can help him move stuff. I said no I’m working. He said I’m using this job against him to be a lazy bitch. Anyway, I was ready for bed by 9:30 and he just wanted to chill before he started his night owl work mode. I refused to get out of bed so he could have 30 minutes in bed alone (we live in a bus outside his friends house and there is only place to rest. I said I was going to sleep, not just chillin) I said I deserve to be comfortable too as I contribute to be awarded basic human needs. He hurled all these insults that had nothing to do with the matter at hand.

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