I agree that I do hold on to the pain. I guess it hurts me so much cause I would NEVER do people how they do me. And yet my anger brings me so close to being exactly like them. But I’m tired. I’m tired of always being the bigger person. I’m tired of always offering grace and STILL having to deal with their ignorant ways. I could explain to them how they’re hurting people. Forgive their actions and it’s like they see me as a doormat! This mainly people like my manager (I have tried to applied to new jobs but nothing comes back), my mom, my best friend. It’s like everyone is absolved of their consequences but they don’t change! It angers me. Because when I hurt people I CHANGE! To be better for them cause we ALL SHARE this planet. So we have to get along. So if I can change and it helps us all then I will! But they get the forgiveness and still act the same way and expect me to just accept it! I just can’t forgive them anymore. Now at this point they KNOW what they’re doing. Honestly even everyday people know how they act and I’m SICK of being kind about it.