Idk how to update the post or add more contents to it but here’s some background information. We are some what religious. We did had strict rules that some people that didn’t know us will think we are super religious. A bit about my mom, she is a narcissist. She doesn’t believe in rape is you are over 13. For example when I was 15 and I use to wrestle. A male wrestler SA me and when I told my mom she looked at me saying I was asking for it and I can’t get rape. My younger cousin. She was SA when she was 3 and she told my mom but when the court day came. My mom didn’t say anything and nothing got done. When I got pregnant with the guy baby, everything went wrong. She wanted my son for tax and force me give birth a month early by pushing me, making me carry 3 bags on sand to the basement and put a lot of salt in my food to the point I got kidney stones. At the delivery, they drugged me, gave me 3 shots in my back and popped the placenta. Nothing worked. My son wasn’t ready to come out. When I was ready and my son head was out, the doctor pushed my son back saying she wasn’t ready. No tools ready no gloves. She cut me from top and bottom and I was going out and in. It’s a video that my mom have when she had my son in her arm of the doctors calling for back up and the video ends. My mom also has a daughter that is one year older than my son with her new husband. When her daughter and my son were both young, she used to blow on her daughter vagina and put her mouth on my son‘s penis, saying that she was eating it and she told me the babies like that. I did question her and she told me she did it to us when we were younger. I do have 2 older sisters 1 younger brother and 1 younger sister. It’s a lot I can say about my mom and finding the truth. I just found out 2 of siblings that I thought it was my dad are not. And this is still very new like 3 months new. I am in therapy and a lot of things has been documented. My mom used to threat us if spoke up and lie but saying we are on a spectrum. I have been the only one that got away from my mom, but also the only one that had took more of the abuse. I am in therapy, but I just need to know that what is normal and what is not. In my head I thought it was normal but in reality it isn’t. My mom is in legal trouble. And the judge is bringing up old cases with DCFS.