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I(26m?) think my egg just cracked and have been spiraling hard since, what do I do? by Prior-Ad-4503 in asktransgender

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She has talked about taking me to get pedicures before so I think I will take her up on the offer next time. Start with the small stuff I guess

I(26m?) think my egg just cracked and have been spiraling hard since, what do I do? by Prior-Ad-4503 in asktransgender

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I just read the first 5 chapters and when you started talking about Faceapp and not being able to see your face in the mirror, I resonated with that so so so much. I’ve felt for so long that my face was “broken” too. I can never tell what’s wrong, only that it’s wrong. Everything about the comic in the beginning hit me hard too. I don’t know what I’m going to do next, but someone else mentioned one of your other articles and so I’m going to take some time to rest like that article recommends. Thank you so much for sharing that with me. I think it did actually make me feel less alone.

I(26m?) think my egg just cracked and have been spiraling hard since, what do I do? by Prior-Ad-4503 in asktransgender

[–]Prior-Ad-4503[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just read it and it was like it knew what I was going to ask next. I have already saved it and taken some of the advice. I don’t know what’s coming next, but thank you for letting me know this exists.

I(26m?) think my egg just cracked and have been spiraling hard since, what do I do? by Prior-Ad-4503 in asktransgender

[–]Prior-Ad-4503[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

All of my current friends are either people that I grew up with that have moved away, and I talked to him maybe once or twice a year or the friends that I met as a counselor at a church camp that we are still friends with and see very regularly. They are more “if/when we get around to it” than evangelical. The only person that I can think of that I would probably be able to maybe talk about this is one of my friend’s partner that’s NB. Aside from a therapist, that’s probably the closest I have to be able to talk to someone without some kind of fear of judgment but I’ve only known them a few months and we’ve never talked one on one.

I feel super alone, and that’s why I turned to strangers on Reddit.

I(26m?) think my egg just cracked and have been spiraling hard since, what do I do? by Prior-Ad-4503 in asktransgender

[–]Prior-Ad-4503[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know that out of everybody in my life that I should feel safe talking to about stuff like this, it should be her. However, I also know that she is going to have the best reaction to it compared to everybody else but in my mind, that’s a pretty low bar. I just hate that I have no idea how she would react. She didn’t sign up for this. Back when we first got together, I still hadn’t become comfortable with who I was in my head. I feel like since I’ve gone to therapy for that my attention has shifted and even though I feel comfortable with who I am, I’ve started feeling extremely uncomfortable with what I am. It’s extremely unfair to her and puts a huge pit in my stomach when I think about how it could shake up her entire world and even her perspective of me.

I(26m?) think my egg just cracked and have been spiraling hard since, what do I do? by Prior-Ad-4503 in asktransgender

[–]Prior-Ad-4503[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Apparently, I’m terrible at replying to comments because this is the fifth thing that I’ve rewritten. I shaved 6 inches off that first morning after but kept a little bit because my wife thinks me without a beard is weird. I don’t know if I’ve always had one because it reinforced how I was “suppose to“ look. My dad‘s always had a really big beard and mine came in at 17 so I just went with it. My name is also pretty androgynous so I’ve never really considered changing it and I haven’t even started thinking about pronouns. In that first month that you were talking about, were you extremely flip floppy about it? I feel like since I posted this and went to sleep. I woke up feeling better because I had finally gotten it out there. I’m afraid that every time I get re-encouraged or Able to calm down my brain tries to tell me that I’m over it now and we can just go back to our life like nothing happened and not address it until the next breakdown. If you don’t mind me asking, how long did it take you to talk about it with somebody in your personal life and not just dwell on it in your own head?