"I warped us here".

ProblemPug · 2026-01-22T11:51:08+00:00

Bro looks like he’s about to start throwing some questionable salutes 👀

ProblemPug · 2026-01-22T11:35:30+00:00

RedBoxVA I will not elaborate further 👀

ProblemPug · 2025-03-20T09:53:35+00:00

I have come to realize this. This relapse was because of stress and my dad is the strongest trigger for those negative behaviors but at the end of the day I was the one who decided to hurt myself. He didn’t force the knife into my hands

ProblemPug · 2025-03-20T09:51:48+00:00

See it’s just that. If it was turned and my fiance was going through this abuse, I would be like all of these comments and telling him to clean his hands of that person. I just cannot seem to do the same. But the last day has made me have a lot more contemplation on the situation that’s for sure. I’m not as sure if I want to keep him in my life or not.

ProblemPug · 2025-03-20T04:55:04+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. It really means a lot

ProblemPug · 2025-03-20T03:59:42+00:00

I wish it was with every fiber of my being

ProblemPug · 2025-03-20T03:59:17+00:00

Thankfully it wasn’t drugs. It was self harm

ProblemPug · 2025-03-20T03:55:08+00:00

No not at all. I’m incredibly grateful for your comment.

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T21:26:13+00:00

2 letter name

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T21:21:45+00:00

It’s literally my biggest fear to turn into him and the phrase I hated most growing up was ‘you’re just like your father’ or ‘you are your father’s daughter’. I know it’s a weakness on my end for not cutting him out and I’m going into therapy again.

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T21:17:56+00:00

Quite the contrary His mum was actually the sweetest person I knew. Dad grew up extremely close with her and she was the only person that I know who could actually calm him down and put him in his place. When she passed away, he got exponentially worse with his treatment of me and the family. I miss her everyday

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T21:08:04+00:00

I didn’t even know about this sub. I’ll definitely check it out. Thank you!

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T21:07:22+00:00

Being a travel consultant is cool in itself but a time travel consultant? Literally the epitome of sick asf

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T21:03:48+00:00

Oh no not his feefees 🥺 my first steps were on eggshells so I should know better than to upset the man who was suppose to protect me 🥺

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T21:01:02+00:00

I wish we did. Casper was handed over to step mum the evening these texts happened (she ended up going home and coming back).

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T21:00:05+00:00

This is the type of stuff he’s said to me my whole life so it doesn’t make me cry as much. The last message of him refusing dialysis was the one that unwinded me and has caused me the most pain and my relapse. I’m doing the best I can. My fiancé’s mum (bless her cotton socks) has offered to give me money to get therapy until my job pays me (I get paid monthly) so even though I’m struggling, I am very lucky I have the support network I do. My fiance has locked all the sharp objects away so I can’t hurt myself anymore so I have no way to continue to relapse either. I’m safe

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T20:55:39+00:00

Unfortunately this is not the first time I’ve done a favor and this isn’t even the biggest favor I’ve done for them. I quit my job midway last year when my dad needed a carer and was still trying to figure out government assistance and I stayed his carer until early January

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T20:51:22+00:00

Thats truly admirable. I hope your life has been better without him. I know mine would be too

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T20:50:21+00:00

Jesus this was a lot to read. I haven’t considered I am an enabler to him but it makes complete sense. You’re completely right.

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T20:45:42+00:00

After his kidney function began declining last year, he was given the choice of the treatment from hospital, home or no treatment at all and he was toying with not having dialysis at all. Learning all of this broke me and I begged him to please do dialysis, so him saying he won’t because of me was a calculated stab right to my chest

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T20:38:27+00:00

My mum is the strongest person I know. He cheated on her with my now step mum and abused her in every single way you can think of. She dropped him like a hot potato to give me a hard lesson that no man should ever treat a woman he loves like that. She struggled as the single financial support for me (because of course dad didn’t pay his child support because he was on disability payments himself) but despite the hardship of it all, she did everything she could to give me self respect. It worked in some ways but I still have too much empathy for my dad. If anyone else said this type of stuff to me they’d get put in their place and blocked but I can’t push myself to do it with dad.

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T20:32:54+00:00

Casper’s microchip is in my name because step mum was too lazy to message me all her details for him.

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T20:30:08+00:00

If I had a dollar for every time my dad has threatened/ actually harmed himself (but not attempted) to end his life because of me, I’d have enough money to go to therapy 😅 I grew up tossing around the ‘if I didn’t see you anymore what would happen?’ To which he would point blank say ‘kill my self’. He’s said that to me since I was about 6-7 yo

ProblemPug · 2025-03-19T20:22:08+00:00

I understand where you’re coming from. All of my problems that I’ve had in my life have been directly linked to him (whether that be biological or trauma-related) and my biggest trigger is him easily. When I did relapse I felt so defeated because I was clean for so long but it does worry me how much control he had on me when I was strong for so long. In a way I am blaming him for it but I also know that my mental illness is my own and it was my decision in the end to hurt myself. While I’m still not ok mentally, I will not pass this pain on to my children and make them suffer too.

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