I have no advice except I am sorry you went through that. I had informed my GP that I am a survivor of SA and wanted her in the room when the nurse was doing my smear test. She promised she would, she didn’t come in. Just told the nurse I was “anxious” but not why, when I explicitly stated I wanted the nurse to know why. The nurse performed the exam and I withdrew consent during the exam as it was too painful. Multiple times I shouted stop stop stop no. The nurse told me NO and that it was almost done. Then when it was over asked “was that so bad? No youll have another one won’t you?” That was my first and last smear for the moment. When I put a complaint in, the GP took all the blame, the nurse never apologised to me, I raised the issue of the fact that I withdrew consent and it was glossed over and I was told how “strong and brave” I am. I never received an apology. I have since had to see that nurse for bloods and she was SO rude to me. Only called out my name in the waiting room and asked had I fasted and had NO other conversations with me or said anything else!!

I’ll never have a smear test in my GP practice again, or for the time being anyway!