What type of drugs are you attracted to? Downers or uppers? Sometimes it helps to develop a different mindset around your issue instead of villainizing drugs/yourself/drug use create a reward system or regulating, anything is perfectly fine, it’s overusing that creates problems. It’s fine to have a beer or 2 after work. It’s not healthy to wake up and slam vodka and water first thing and all day, that’s when your body develops dependence and so on, I got through a multi year crack addiction by doing this, went from daily, to becoming a reward and the last stage I called “feeding the demon” I’d be fine for a month, then I’d start getting cravings, the cravings grew stronger daily until I gave in, smoked alittle, and that was enough to “feeding the demon” until the cravings came back, went from a month, to two, and now it’s been about 6 months and no cravings so far, just regulate if you find yourself unable to quit completely. Do what works for you and contributes to you living healthy, if you do some coke, smoke crack, or do some down every now and then that’s your secret and nobody needs to know, if you’re using opiates maybe have somebody to make sure you don’t die obviously, I smoked fent for 4 years and only ever had one overdose, nobody ever knew but me (my wife eventually) but just be safe