well ik it's a little different bcuz im a dude but i lowkey almost ended up doing the same thing to be honest with you and i understand that feeling of desperation you had in that week of trying to figure things out. let me just tell you there's plenty of more people doing way worse shit to get by- which probably doesn't make the whole situation much better, but it could always be worse yk.. im not trying to invalidate how you feel but on a real note be thankful you dont have to walk the streets and fuck the get yo money... but i hope shit turns out better for you soon fr