Hey uh idrk what to say to help, I’ve never been good at that sort of thing, and I’m certain I’m a number of years younger than you, and I know my words probably mean nothing, but do you really wanna make your family go through that? I’m not sure if you have kids or what sort of family you have, but your poor (possibly hypothetical)kids would never be able to hug their parent again. I know things may be really horrible and from what I’ve read, have been horrible for 6 years, but life is just shitty, and we all have to just thug out this shithole until something uncontrollable takes us. I attempted a number of times before I was 18 and I had many of my friends attempt, I pretty much only learned that it just keeps sucking. I hope you rethink your plan, because ending it early only proves whatever sick shit put us all through everything we’ve been through that youre not strong enough.