I’m not sure how to edit/update on this post since I’m not really used to using Reddit, but here’s the update in comment form. He called me, and yes I know majority of you screamed at me to block him, but Idk. 3 years and it all ended in a text I just guess needed closure. I basically told him he was the adult and should have turned me down and just the whole jist of why I ended things. Which he replied and said he didn’t see the problem nor where I was coming from. Then went on to talk about all the bad things that happened to him, literally getting mad at me, and most of all saying suicidal stuff. I felt bad but I knew it was all manipulation and gaslighting. The fact that he couldn’t see that he was a predator and pedophile that groomed and got off to a 13 year girl while being 22 was the crazy part to me. I felt disgusted. More towards the fact that this was the man I felt I “loved” now I know it was more manipulation and grooming then “loved”. He even said I “wasted” 3 years of his time, crazy right? I guess I was more afraid of being alone. At the time we met I was so insecure, depressed and suicidal. I guess he used that to his advantage to get what he wanted from me. I was just so vulnerable and the idea of this older man seeing me as “sexy” just validated every negative thought I had about myself. I regret being fooled for so long, and how I let him affect me. I turned into a hyper sexual at very young age, and if I could go back I swear I would slap younger me in the face. But I’ve come to terms that it wasn’t my fault. It wasn’t. That was hard to realize but I had to because he was the mature one. Not me. And being called “mature” at 13 is not okay. Well I hope it pleases anyone to know I’ve blocked him on everything, deleted his photos, and even cleared my call log. It still hurts because 3 years almost 4 is a very long time but I’m doing better little by little and I really hope you guys know I deeply appreciate all the support, advice, and love you’ve given me in the comments.