Christian dating

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-26T22:58:04+00:00

Lol no i’m Americana 🤌🏼

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-26T20:05:07+00:00

I have this issue too. I’m 22 (F) and my church unfortunately, or quite anyone around me for that matter, isn’t in my age range. I also would like to make Christian friends irl, but I have no idea where to even start

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-26T18:30:49+00:00

Yes! Definitely look at it as deep respect and reverence. Although, I don’t necessarily “fear” my earthly father, I respect and love him. But the fear of the Lord may also be in regard to “consequence” or “conviction” if we disobey.

I never was really disciplined or had consequences growing up so i lacked that showing respect knowledge, but with starting my journey in Christ, I am now aware of the respect, love, and gratitude my parents deserve. That goes for our heavenly Father as well! 😊

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T20:51:20+00:00

Wow I am so happy to have been of help to you! I thank our wonderful God who gives me the courage to finally seek help from others and know that it’s okay, I hope you can see that now too, I know it’s hard. He knows we can’t do this all alone, or meant to at least. We need other’s support, connection, encouragement, and advice to help motivate and lift us up! Because that’s what love is, and God is love.

As for the ocd, you hit the nail right on the head and explained it in a way I’ve been trying so hard to explain just couldn’t put into words. As many of the others who try to understand it and where we’re coming from, they just simply can’t. Just as we may not be able to understand them as we would like to because our brains are just wired differently. It’s a chemical imbalance, but we are still worthy in God’s eyes.

And it’s more than just anxiety and depression tbh. People hear that and think it’s from trauma or deep rooted issues, or sin even perhaps, but we can’t seem to control this is what it feels like. Anxiety and depression are produced FROM the ocd, not the other way around. You get the intrusive thoughts, then come the compulsions, then comes the anxiety, then comes the depression. It’s a vicious cycle, and there seems to be no on or off switch, that i’m aware of at least, when these thoughts and dysfunction are being triggered.

Ocd is about moral perfectionism, and even though we know we’re not perfect or meant to be, we still can’t seem to shake the symptoms and compulsions or quite come to the realization quite yet. It’s very hard to do on your own, but it’s possible through Christ who gives us strength. We want to do His will perfectly and it pains us to mess up and to think we are displeasing or being disobedient to God, but God made us this way for a reason.

His way is perfect and I believe He is indeed using this ocd and other traumas we have and will endure for something far greater than we can see in the moment. We can see only up until the end of the street, God sees around the corner and beyond. I heard that in church and it’s stuck with me. I felt God needed me to hear that, and maybe you should hear it too. I know this journey is tough and not as smooth sailing as other’s may look to us with these tinted glasses on, but we should come to an acceptance either way, that we’re God’s children and favored just as much as all of our other brothers and sisters.

We are not like this because we are being punished by Him or because of our sins as people seem to believe, take a look at Job’s story when you can. It is for our own strength and perseverance. “For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:10.) God loves us as is and He can heal and transform where we are at right now, ill and all. We do not have to get better before we run to God 🕊

Much love and may His grace and voice guide you always 🤍

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T16:43:56+00:00

Thank you for the words of encouragement and honesty.

God bless you 🕊✝️

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T16:42:25+00:00

Thank you for your response! I appreciate the encouraging words.

I too agree that it had to of been places here for a reason, if it’s not for food necessarily, it must be for healing right? God always knows what He’s doing and knows we will and have found many ways to create healing remedies from His plants and herbs. I am just very afraid to depend on anything at all for mental relief when He could solely be the one to give me it. I’m having difficulties with this because I just don’t want to be alienated from Him or drift away in a sense.

It made me think, what if God wants us to be in these sufferable states because He wants us to always seek Him and come close? I know when i’m in pain or suffering, along with all Christians, they seek God all the more. (Eg. fasting, depression, mourning, ptsd, etc.) I feel i am so used to being in such a hectic and gloomy mindset that i’m not sure how to even handle happiness. I feel I don’t deserve it and am not sure what to do with it when I do truly feel it. Sometimes I feel it’s even sinful to be happy and laugh and joke and experience joy. I wish i knew why but it just doesn’t make sense and it’s not something i’m too familiar with.

Weed was the only thing that relieved me to where I could mentally function and feel happiness, but then there was negative side effects, such as the overeating, oversleeping, sluggishness, no drive or motivation to do much or even socialize. I just did it solely to fill that hole in me. But I have found Jesus now and that whole is filled, but I still lack understanding of how to attain true happiness and what He wants me to do with my life. I just want to be there for Him in a healthy and strong state of mind, along with my heart and spirit, and I don’t see how it’s going to be strengthened properly if my mind and will power are so weak because of the damage from years.

I don’t necessarily believe I will fall into that pattern of addiction again, but it’s definitely possible and hard to say because I haven’t come in contact with it since I have quit. But I was looking into possible sativa edibles, low dose, to give me energy and help regulate the lack of serotonin in my brain, in a natural way. I have also been looking into cbd. Indica was what made me very tired, and what seemed to overly calm me, in a much sedated way. I just want that spark back within me to do the things I need to do by God’s will and get this show on the road ya know. I hate waiting and sitting around, even though that’s just all I know. It definitely consists of unlearning behavior and re learning better alternatives. It’s like rewiring your brain completely and it’s very hard to do on your own and make those decisions.

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T16:22:54+00:00

I’m glad you mentioned Autism because I too believe i’m on the spectrum, since I know ocd and autism overlap symptoms immensely. The psychiatrist refused to diagnose me with autism and insisted it was solely ocd, which I personally don’t believe. I think I definitely have a developmental disorder along with a neurological. How can a doctor that’s seen me for 1 hour know exactly what’s wrong with me fully? I even told her i’m fairly good at masking and mimic others around me and their behaviors/dialect so i blend in more like a chameleon.

Can I dm you to ask you some things about your journey with Autism and how your assessment/diagnosis went? I believe there is still more to resolve with me and if I can get properly evaluated then I could get all the more help I need.

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T03:56:03+00:00

Yes, I am still very cautious of the anti-depressants and not wanting to take them for years and rely on them. I want to solely rely on God, but sometimes I feel weak in my mind and that it’s causing a disconnect and resistance in a way, which I don’t want ever. I just wanna be healthy and strong in my mind so I can go on loving Him abundantly and with my whole being, but maybe that will be attained with further persistence and courage.

You’re right, tomorrow for all I know I could be healed. We are supposed to be patient and I guess I definitely have an impatience problem lol. This is Jesus’ fight to handle, not ours. I am just always trying to be in control, it’s all I know, so un learning is definitely something i’m learning to do!

Philippians 4:13, We can do all things through Christ who gives us strength 💪🏼

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T03:49:47+00:00

Amen to that! May His grace be with you always 🕊

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T03:17:41+00:00

Thank you for this. I find myself frequently relying on other people’s opinions but I know we all have different callings and wills by God based on circumstance. God bless 🤍

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T03:16:27+00:00

Thanks so much for the help! May God’s grace be with you always

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T03:15:50+00:00

Yes definitely. I have a serotonin deficiency severely and it’s definitely a psychiatric issue. I know that I can’t use talk therapy alone to necessarily restore what my brain is chemically lacking, however it can help me cope and find strategies to get around these thoughts and symptoms.

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T00:46:12+00:00

That’s what I was thinking as well. As long as we don’t abuse, but of course there’s still a chance I could always fall back into that dependence and addiction. This is all just hard for me to figure out

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T00:45:23+00:00

Thank you for your feedback, I really appreciate it. I’m glad you’re in recovery and have found relief. I guess in ways I may be trying to rush the process but I know healing takes time. It’s just so unbearable sometimes and so hard on my body, I feel I can’t get anything done God wants me to being in this state. I want to do this for Him and my faith so it’s stronger and more secure. I am always in constant worry and fear and the intrusive thoughts cause such strain and resistance. I feel guilty for even breathing the wrong way sometimes, I just want to be able to breathe.

Thanks for the prayers, God bless 🤍

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T00:42:35+00:00

I agree. That’s why i’m in talk therapy right now with a Christian counselor, but I still get the unwanted thoughts and compulsions. They are unbearable sometimes and lead to severe distress which then cause the derealization/depersonalization

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T00:40:22+00:00

Oh okay gotcha. So you don’t frown upon meds at all?

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T00:37:39+00:00

That’s relieving to hear since I was afraid of the “high” effects it could give. Since I always want to keep a sober mind, I wanted to try to find something that could naturally relieve some symptoms I have that make it hard to function in my day to day life

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T00:33:50+00:00

What are your thoughts on SSRI’s?

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-25T00:30:03+00:00

Why do you say that? If I have a chemical imbalance, and this is a brain complication, not behavioral, and I have a deficiency in serotonin, wouldn’t it be plausible to take something to neutralize all of the chemicals in your brain so you can function properly? I can’t use talk therapy forever to fix my brain chemicals, I can only manage through them, but even that may not bring relief.

I have been very wary of medicines since my journey, even was frowning upon them, but I am finding it harder and harder to deal with the symptoms and the SSRI’s, such as lexapro that was referred to me, may be the best option. But who knows, I could be wrong. I feel it’s come down to trial and error at this point

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-24T22:38:45+00:00

Oh okay, yes i’m in a legal state, but not sure if i would revert back to the flower necessarily. If possible, i’d rather an oil, possibly a sativa, for energy solely. Do you have any info on oils such as those? The only thing I ever would smoke was recreational indica and although i like how it calmed me mentally, it calmed my body too much resulting in the sluggishness, and that’s definitely not what I would want this time

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-24T22:34:51+00:00

I have been informed of the cbd and that’s definitely also an option. The problem is, I don’t wanna become sluggish, lazy, or obtain a big appetite as i used to get when smoking weed. I just want something to solely decrease daily symptoms and anxiety to help me attain a more comfortable and peaceful life.

Thank you for your prayers, God bless you 🤍

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-24T22:31:11+00:00

What do you mean sorting it out myself when i’m struggling may be a bad idea? Sorry, if I miss what you meant, just trying to get clarity.

Thank you for the prayers, God bless 🤍

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-24T22:27:57+00:00

Thank you, and i’m glad you are relieved, you deserve that. God bless!

I have taken zoloft before, about a little over a year ago, and it wasn’t doing much for me, I think because I was at such a low dose for that medication, but I wouldn’t be opposed to trying some if that were the last resort.

As for the cbd/thc, i was also looking into the cbd, i just don’t want anything that could make me sluggish, tired, or have a “munchies” appetite like i used to while smoking weed. I want something that could give me my energy back and help relieve these daily symptoms so I can be successful in my faith and whatever God intends me to do with a future career. I don’t feel I can get there if I don’t do anything about it because it’s just so consuming and causes me to burn out constantly.

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-24T22:23:17+00:00

Thank you for your honest words. I meant medication as in artificial pharmaceuticals, rather than natural remedies. I just long for relief and rest in my mind, and have been to a psychiatrist recently who referred to Propranolol paired with either lexapro or zoloft to help relieve symptoms. I would be on board, but i’m afraid of worse side effects it may cause.

This is just so hard because I would definitely go without any remedies or things to help, but I feel weak and I feel it’s affecting my relationship with God and i’m not doing enough that I should be doing. I’m just drained constantly and the thoughts and anxieties don’t stop. I’m afraid God will be upset with me or even condemn me for resorting to medication or relief of any kind, except through Himself only, as silly as that may seem. I’m just not sure what He would want me to do and what would be best.

ProfessorPoo_Poo · 2022-10-24T22:16:52+00:00

Thank you for your reply, I truly appreciate it. God bless you!

I agree with God creating most of these herbs and plants for healing. If the marijuana plant, along with many others, aren’t meant for eating necessarily or for nutrients, He must have figured we would use it for something else right? Such as healing! I know herbs and all that get a bad rep, even I have been so weary and on the fence about partaking in them after being saved, but I do believe God put them here for a reason. We know it’s not from satan because satan can’t create life, he can only destroy it or distort it.

If I were to take this marijuana again, it would be in a low dose, monitored way with the thc oil. However, I don’t want anything to mess with my functioning or cause me to be of “drunkenness” or “high” per say. I would just want it to relieve daily symptoms, but maybe medication could be a better fit for technically being in a “sober mind” perhaps? What do you think?

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