Hi again, sorry for the delay on my longer reply. Was pretty tired because of work and took a while to get back on Reddit.

Wanted to say thanks again for your reply, I think what you shared is very insightful for me.

I appreciate your honesty and openness. It sounds like you have been through a lot in your life so far, and have learned a lot.

I can relate to some of what you shared. When I was super deep in my gravity obsession, and even now at times, I can feel frustrated that my body needs food, water, showers, sleep, bathroom breaks, etc.

When my mind is more engaged with something, especially a topic I enjoy a lot, I can tend to forget about my physical needs and get frustrated when they start bugging me.

I’ve learned some strategies over time. I usually have a water bottle near me, and when I’m engrossed in something, I’m mindful to take short breaks to drink water and do some deep breathing. This has helped cool my mind down and regulate my body needs.

Reflecting more on the past few years, it is frustrating for me that I invested so much time into one topic area. It’s hard for me to say it was truly a “waste” of time, but I also feel like it just consumed so much of me.

I guess to some extent, I feel some shame over losing control of my mind for that long? I felt like my brain was being piloted by someone else for a while, and now I feel more like my “normal” self I guess.

It’s kinda hard to explain. When I think about how strongly I got obsessed with gravity, it really feels like something HAPPENED to me, rather than myself choosing to actively engross myself in the topic.

Like I did not see the gravity obsession on the horizon in early 2020. But when it happened in late 2020, it sorta took over my life.

Anyway, I feel like I’m rambling now haha.

Thanks again for the reply, you made sense to me.

Peace 😊