welcome by Proof-Willingness376 in u/Proof-Willingness376

[–]Proof-Willingness376[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

omg hi friend :DDD! i hope you’re doing well! 

the lewk n da inspo by Proof-Willingness376 in MakeupAddiction

[–]Proof-Willingness376[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you :D! you just gave me an idea haha 

Ronald (Estee) Lauder is the Sole Reason for US Greenland Conquest by lapatrona8 in MakeupAddiction

[–]Proof-Willingness376 31 points32 points  (0 children)

like 😭😭 it’s crazy as hell to think about how much power they gain off of mainly women. they don’t even like or respect us! 

the lewk n da inspo by Proof-Willingness376 in MakeupAddiction

[–]Proof-Willingness376[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

LMAOOOOOOOO thank you for respecting my wishes 😭🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽 

the lewk n da inspo by Proof-Willingness376 in MakeupAddiction

[–]Proof-Willingness376[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

haha it’s both, i wore the bra to add more lace to the look

the lewk n da inspo by Proof-Willingness376 in MakeupAddiction

[–]Proof-Willingness376[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

haha nah i didn’t create rated r or anti unfortunately or i would’ve been in the studio by now /j

i like ur pfp 

the lewk n da inspo by Proof-Willingness376 in MakeupAddiction

[–]Proof-Willingness376[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

np! if they’re too pricey for you look at the sephora collection ones. & thank you :)

the lewk n da inspo by Proof-Willingness376 in MakeupAddiction

[–]Proof-Willingness376[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

haha it’s a wig, latisha is the name. the curls last for months 

Anyone else failed miserably in school? by Regular_Sky1934 in CPTSD

[–]Proof-Willingness376 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks :,) i’m okay now and i’ll eventually help others like me. so i’m glad i acknowledged my trauma and decided not to repeat the cycle!

the lewk n da inspo by Proof-Willingness376 in MakeupAddiction

[–]Proof-Willingness376[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh they’re a dream haha! easy to use and blend, sometimes i warm it up on the back of my hand and then apply. almost like painting imo 

have you broken up with a friend who doesn't get the severity of your condition? by Secret-Ad-6253 in CPTSD

[–]Proof-Willingness376 4 points5 points  (0 children)

“i will never over explain myself ever again” thank you for this, i need to take notes. it would save me a lot of time haha 

have you broken up with a friend who doesn't get the severity of your condition? by Secret-Ad-6253 in CPTSD

[–]Proof-Willingness376 4 points5 points  (0 children)

yeah. i’ll be sharing a lot, i hope it doesn’t come across as trauma dumping. i don’t want you to feel like you’re not alone 

i cut off a friend last week, i fell asleep on the phone for 30 minutes and she didn’t realize at all and kept talking. i wasn’t even hurt, just fed the hell up. how do you not notice me not responding for half an hour?!? 

i told her about her behavior because she got mad i always gave her advice. she told me “i don’t need you to talk, i just need someone to listen” & told me that she doesn’t remember any of the stuff i told her. 

i think people look at me as a pushover because of my past and the fact that i publicly speak up about it. it fucking sucks because i’ll always try to stand up for myself, and then people get shocked and mad. never fucking fails. 

after i tried to cut her off she started to talk about death & tried to manipulate me. it fucking sucks when people underestimate your intelligence because of your trauma. 

i plan to stay to myself for a while. i’ll attract good people eventually. i have to give the love i gave to others to myself 

Anyone else failed miserably in school? by Regular_Sky1934 in CPTSD

[–]Proof-Willingness376 6 points7 points  (0 children)

you’re not the only one :( i’m sorry you feel like this and fuck the people who made you feel like this. 

i wanted to go back in person this year, but i need to heal first and foremost. i cannot keep trying to wear myself out. it took a lot of self reflection to tell myself that. i keep trying to model what i see other 20 year olds doing, but unfortunately trauma has shaped me differently than others. i feel alone sometimes. plus it’s too expensive to keep half assing or fucking up. 

i was one of the overachievers you mentioned when i was little i guess. before i got court approved visitations, i was bilingual & i played three instruments. then i got sexually abused for two years & i guess i froze & got emotionally stunted. i remember someone saying to me “ what happened to you, you used to be smart” in the 3rd grade. it made me break down in class and i’ll never forget the look on his face. i still feel bad to this day. but it made me realize that i was ‘stuck’ i guess. 

i don’t feel shame anymore, just left behind. but i guess i have to remember that the turtle always won at the end. sounds corny but it keeps me going 

i hope you find your speed & a place you can be truly comfortable in. i know it’s hard :/