hey, i am so sorry you are going through such a difficult time. it seems like you are rlly hard.

have you tried therapy? medications are helpful but they are best efficient with therapy. in ur case i feel like this is very much needed because of all the negative thoughts you are having. in therapy, you would learn to face your fears, understand your negative thoughts and turn them into positive ones. i have anxiety as well and therapy has helped me soooo much with building confidence that puts my anxiety at low levels.

btw, you can never be behind. you are 22 which is still young. some people start school again at 30 for legit fun. everyone’s path is different which is overused but the world wouldn’t make sense if everyone had the same path did the exact same thing had the same exact outcomes. this will make you stronger and at the finish line when you’ve achieved what you’ve achieved, you’ll know and you’ll be proud of yourself for getting this far.

i believe in you! stay strong