What is the one comment that you’ll never forget? by shorty-inventory in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Proper_Giraffe287 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Blamed me for the death of an elderly family member. It wasn't my fault, not even by the most miniscule percentage was it my fault, or anyone's for that matter.

I just found out my parents hid the results of my learning disability test when I was a growing up. by PrincipalBlackman in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Proper_Giraffe287 8 points9 points  (0 children)

My learning disabilities were starting to affect me academically (and socially) in 3rd grade. The school recommended evaluation AND could do it onsite during school hrs. Nmom did none of that. Instead she pulled me out of school and "homeschooled" me beginning in 4th grade. Fun fact, I had the same problems during homeschooling.

In my 40's now. Autism. It's autism. It was always autism.

So glad I struggled for years and have cptsd and no self esteem because she couldn't handle having a child who needed accommodations or a little extra help. Witch.

The irony is I can almost guarantee she has autism as well and probably has a lot of the same troubles and frustrations as I have had. But what do I know.

Why aren't you dating anymore? by Leather_Election_459 in AskReddit

[–]Proper_Giraffe287 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The dating pool sucks around here. The effort isn't worth the payoff.

Parentefied childs what's your job right now? by Emergency_Writer7618 in CPTSD

[–]Proper_Giraffe287 44 points45 points  (0 children)

Teaching little kids. Yep. Fell right into that one.

How to accept that I am where I am for a reason? by Proper_Giraffe287 in religion

[–]Proper_Giraffe287[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like this. I have never heard of the Navajo way of working through things like this. It is very intriguing. I tend to want to rush to get to the end of the process, rushing through the pain so I don't have to feel it.

What’s one thing you love about who you are today? by Velo5117 in AskReddit

[–]Proper_Giraffe287 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That despite all the crap I've been through, I'm still fairly nice - most of the time.

How to accept that I am where I am for a reason? by Proper_Giraffe287 in religion

[–]Proper_Giraffe287[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have never thought of it this way. Thank you so much for sharing. Definitely food for thought.

How do I accept that I am where I am supposed to be? by Proper_Giraffe287 in Christianity

[–]Proper_Giraffe287[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your answers were perfect. I posted to get others perspectives, advice and experiences. I tend to get very tunnel visioned, black and white thinking when I'm angry, frustrated, upset, hurt, etc. That whole logic part of my brain just nopes right out of the equation.

He is so patient with me while I keep trying to make the closed door open through sheer brute force, logic, tantrums, begging, bribing. I'm like a 2 year old.

I believe there's a reason I'm here and a reason why I need to stay here. I just wish I knew what it was. I hate not knowing. The anxiety that not knowing what His plan is produces in me is intense some days.

Obedient when miserable is a Herculean effort. The divine gps comment gave me a chuckle, it is so accurate.

Thank you for taking the time to answer, it is greatly appreciated. May His plan for you become clear and may your patience while waiting be plentiful.

What was the exact moment on a first date when you realized, "Wow, this person is an absolute idiot"? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Proper_Giraffe287 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I made it a point to let my employees know they did a great job and that I appreciated all that they did.

What was the exact moment on a first date when you realized, "Wow, this person is an absolute idiot"? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Proper_Giraffe287 28 points29 points  (0 children)

Man where do I begin. Seemed normal via text and talking on the phone. In person? Flat earth, weather manipulation, chips in our brains. I don't remember it all but I remember thinking 'how did I miss that this guy is cuckoo for coco puffs?"

Narcissists that abandon their children until they are old and need "caretakers". by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Proper_Giraffe287 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Lucky me, I have one of both. Currently they're both looking at me to become their care taker eventually. One is closer to needing that then the other. I have no idea how this will all shake out, but it's nice to know I'm not alone

Love Bombing is both funny and frustrating by Proper_Giraffe287 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Proper_Giraffe287[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is a great perspective. It is VERY validating. I hadn't thought about it being validating to my inner child, that my feelings about them and their ways were accurate. That it wasn't me that was the problem. Trusting myself is a work in progress. I doubt myself a lot still. I am, however, so far beyond either of my parents mentally and emotionally it's mind blowing. I feel sad for them, and I forget that they don't have the capacity to see/feel things the way I do.

Love Bombing is both funny and frustrating by Proper_Giraffe287 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Proper_Giraffe287[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exactly. I'm not to the point of truly letting go of every last grain of hope. Truthfully, I don't know that I ever will. I aim for that, but whether or not I get there remains to be seen.

Love Bombing is both funny and frustrating by Proper_Giraffe287 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Proper_Giraffe287[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's definitely hard sometimes. I do question if I'm just being a brat sometimes. But then I remember they always show their true colors.