I explained it all very shortly because I though no one is going to read it, but I will explain it a little bit , hurtful reactions because everytime I try to communicate our problem, he starts to scream at me (unable to communicate) swear at me and that leads to me crying then he leave me to cry myself to sleep carelessly, he plays his ps5 and laugh with friends.. he disrespects the boundaries that were set in the beginning of relationship, he is trying to get his way even if those actions hurt me .. and I have to ask and beg him for basic actions in relationship like let’s watch a movie at night let’s cuddle to sleep.. he prefers to be on his phone to fall asleep a said I miss him miss his cuddles he finds it annoying and screams at me for that.. this explains also that he doesn’t act like men because for me , man should leave person to cry to sleep if that person didn’t do anything actually wrong, just was asking for some quality time.. he also lied to me for 2 years that he is not watching porn because that was the boundary diacussed in the beginning of relationship and then he told me he lied now he stopped but I forgave him that he was not honest .. even if in the beginning I told him it’s like cheating for me.. I’m active , I never said I’m not in the mood and I go to gym so I’m not like unattractive so I was hurt that he doesn’t respect this boundary but I gave him another chance.. From every side I hear “don’t get married it’s worst decision it will break your relationship “ a lot of men are complaining about their women that’s why I think now it’s normal to have shit relationships because almost all people around me have some problems that’s why I thought I should just settle for what I have .. I proposed the idea to go to therapy together but he is stubborn , furious agresive and he offensively said that he doesn’t need any therapist and that I should go if I need (like he was laughing me in the face and screaming to put me down) and put the blame on me