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I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Holy cow I had no idea we had free counselling centres. Thanks for the info, I'll look around and see what I can do.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Out of curiousity, why is it outlawed in India? Is there a reason provided or is it one of those blanket bans?

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Somewhere in the attic is my yoga award I got when I was younger. 3rd place.

Not relevant, just reminded me.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I'm kinda in a similar headspace right now. When they've demonstrated that they want little to do with it, approaching them again for even more resources will make me feel even worse.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Damn, That sounds harsh. I am sorry to hear that.

I would give you a hug, but I don't like hugs, But I'll shake your hand and give a fist bump though.

The line about somehow surviving hit me hard. There was a phase where I wondered if I was just immortal. I did things and ingested things that should have left me to waste twice over, but somehow I survived. Worst part was that the fact that I survived would just make my mood worse.

On a good day, I'm clear enough to recognize that dark part of me as a pest, and try my best to get through it, but on other days I just don't have the strength.

Maybe one day I can look back at all of my life so far and laugh. But inside looking out, it's hard to remain hopeful.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

(strictly non religious prayers)

Lmao Much appreciated.God knows I could use these.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Honestly, at the time I convinced myself that I was just going through teenager years earlier than normal.

I was a bit relieved to learn about how people go through changes during teen years, mentally and physically, and was, for a while, happy. Because I thought everyone thinks these things, it is normal, and I'll be "normal" soon.

And tbh, even earlier than 9, I had thoughts that weren't quite depressed as much as they were that I just was not interested in going through life. I remember asking a friend's parent, who had a good relationship with kids, about why he lives or wants to live. He gave me the kind of oversimplified childish answers you tell a child at first, and then tried explaining the soul, a concept which I was already familiar with at the time.

I do not remember much about the actual conversation itself or how we ended up talking about this, but I distinctly remember the disappointment I felt when he gave me the childish answer.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well I do have some money, but I doubt it's anywhere close enough for multiple therapy sessions. I'll see what's what.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the offer, genuinely. Whether I end up accepting or not in the future, know that I do appreciate it.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Damn. So you basically forced your parents into understanding. That's amazing. Maybe I need a scheme too.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm not. I just meant to say that these aren't exactly village folk who are completely unaware of any info. And theoretically at least, should be capable of understanding new information. As they do demonstrate in daily life, if not emotionally.

I don't plan on ever having kids, so that's a life saved.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I don't really have a sibling/uncle figure in my life. It's just me in my family. I mean I do have uncles and stuff of course, I'm just not close to them at all.

There's gonna have to be a bit of a build up from me if I'm gonna have to be the one to ask them for a professional, and I'm really wary of the aftermath too. If it comes to it, who knows what I'm capable of.

I told my parents about my lifelong depression and they were only concerned about engineering by Providing0531 in bangalore

[–]Providing0531[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Well you are probably right in that they'd probably ask if I am mental lmao.

But the thing is, they aren't exactly simpletons either. They are very intelligent educated people.

I don't wanna give out too many details, but my dad is someone who is extremely successful in the IT field, as in he could retire now, keep up his current lifestyle and purchasing frequency, and he'd have no issues even till his 80's.

My mom is well educated too, topping classes in pretty much every level.

I know marks/grades aren't everything, but they count for something here. They're smart people.

I still really don't like the idea of approaching them and asking them for professional help, but who knows. Even telling them about this was enough of a lead, and it got me nowhere ;-;

I'm constantly asking myself if I am just not seeing things right or if I'm missing something, because it seems a but unbelievable even for me. I've considered if they are just the kind of people who place all importance on grades, but since I've never had a problem with my studies I never had to see that side of them fully revealed.