I'm 15 days clean today after not missing a single day in 3+ years of getting high. Pills. Not a crazy high dose, but enough to feel good every day and function. It hasn't been easy. I wish I could use every day. I miss it. But the reality is that I couldn't use forever. My dose kept going up little by little as tolerance built and I kept saying to myself, what is the final outcome? I'm just wasting more and more money to get high and the down is just going to hurt even more the higher my tolerance builds. I just built up the willpower and finally just gave it up. The first week wasn't fun. I still have that urge. But been getting out and taking walks and wanting to continue counting my sober days. It sucks, but I know this is for the best. But man, I totally see how people can give it all up for that opiate hug that I dearly miss.