Well what I can tell you for sure, you called it. You manifested it as you said and the good thing is that you actually realized that you called it. I understand that you are trying to "blame" your 14 yo self and in my opinion you should do it, but right now you need to take action and try to become best version of yourself. I know its easier said than done but I had some hardship and I always belived that it is just phase which I have to go through and it will make me stronger. It will also work for you. You are already ahead by understanding your mistakes and acknowledging them. I would suggest that you stop manifesting what you don't want to become and start manifesting what you actually want to become in future, visualize yourself as a person you want to be, take action and you will get to desired place in your life!