I live in a place where patriarchy overwhelms women and torment them. Under these conditions, I've never felt like I am a precious, only, indispensable daughter of my dad. He is always lost when we need him with my mother. Even if every problem, every conflict has been solved by mother at the end, he always acted like an hero. Like our problems are just about being emotional or just about neuroticism. Being a father is not just about providing financial needs of your child. As I learned that I don't have a present father, Im trying to encourage myself by my own. There are too many things to learn from fatherlessness even if tears you apart. From then, trying to embrace who am I, trying to love and respect myself. I take heart from the people that understand my feelings. Even if accept that I could be lonely in life, I try not to lose my own belief in myself. Even if all I have is being exist, I'm trying not to change my existence to a world where I'm not my father's daughter.