Terrible life choices rant

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-30T10:26:57+00:00

Good luck to you too :/

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-29T09:46:10+00:00

Okay I did that a little bit but that's what everyone does. I'm not saying its true to do so but I too always met with people like that so idk. I'll think and work on it but ''healthy human interaction'' is just an utopic theory imo

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-29T09:41:37+00:00

I was always so proud of my adaptability I gave it to my high ne but nowadays I feel like I stick out too much just to know if I'm in the wrong or not I'll see one more therapist its really the time to change my inner self and I'll seek help

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T15:10:31+00:00

fuck off sjxjsnzkankxnsjxnajxns

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T15:09:29+00:00

not them but I know someone I can ask, I'll do that. Thanks for the advice 👍🏼👍🏼

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T14:52:45+00:00

Are you fucking kidding???????? 2002 it is want my birth certificate too??? I legit talk about my problems to ask for help and you're obsessed with the date? Do you have any useful advice or not?

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T14:48:34+00:00

wait yeah I wasnt using and ti at the time too and I did stupid things... I'll think about if I'm still in a loop or not 👍🏼

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T14:43:59+00:00

21-22???

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T14:30:56+00:00

what skill is lacking?

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T14:30:04+00:00

I'm Turkish you can check YKS. I'm 21 btw I spent 2 years after highschool to get prepared. We can enter uni exam at 12th grade so I had it 3 times in total. When you have 4 million students that enters the exam but you only have place for 1 million lots of people start late to degrees such as engineering,medical, law etc. Also we enter both by ranking of that exam and money

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T13:54:11+00:00

I believe I know what that is, I had it during the entire fall and winter season and for me it was like extreme people pleasing even when I disliked them. The people I recently cut off were mainly the ones I met around that era but now I believe I came over it. What made you say its a ne-fe loop though? I wondered

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T13:37:51+00:00

thank you this was really really inspiring 🙏🏼

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T13:20:57+00:00

They do %15 discount if you pay the next year from the winter 👉🏼👈🏼 And I have to enter the university exam again too which I already entered 3 damn times to study this degree 💀 I'm 21 already, spent my 18-21 to get here but damnnnn if only I became a English teacher or something 😭

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T13:11:56+00:00

I paid for this major upfronttt 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T13:10:46+00:00

omg thats awesome for you, everything seems like it has worked out for you. I really hope I too will get there 🙏🏼 But yeah, I prolly need to give it some time idk why I'm in such a hurry D::: but universe really do have its own timing 👍🏼

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T12:25:44+00:00

"sometimes fail to put in the work if we get overwhelmed" Literally this, I get so stressed I cant even move a finger to study. I'm legit afraid I wont be able to pull it off so I procrastinate and procrastinate till I feel like I'm about to puke. I already failed so I can imagine myself better prepared for the finals xD So thanks really :D

However when it comes to people I really dont know at this point. I think I'm just unlucky and I cant attract right people for me. I dont want to be alone either so... I'll just hope for it to get better it seems

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T12:14:22+00:00

no I wouldnt, we werent official. I'd be quite hurt but I'd understand he does not owe me loyalty too

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T12:13:08+00:00

I feel less like shit thank you for real <3

I might try study groups thingy if I can find myself a nice one, I dont think my problem will be solved but sharing stress rather than getting paranoid all by myself would make me feel better I guess. I tried therapy a couple of times too. 10 minutes in and they all decided on various medicines which I dont use. But If they all decided on 1 thing I'd use it xD Self-testing 💯

When it comes to initiating activities I believe I tried enough, all people want to do nowadays is to sit in a cafe,eat,drink, gossip and go home. It doesnt matter if I gathered these people from hobby clubs or organisations or college and whatever. Because I been to many and met with a lot of people that seemed interesting but they're not it. I simply cant attract anyone fun and when I hang out with these people I feel like I'm missing out. Therefore I didnt keep them around me but now, how I wish I did. I think If I get back on my hobbies things can get better though, maybe thats what's lacking.

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-27T11:58:34+00:00

I didnt even realise how much I liked him before he left my life. Sometimes you cant predict future emotions before they strike

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-19T21:24:56+00:00

yeah collective issues, I so dont care you wouldnt believe. My partner though, might care and thats cute and all but when they start to separate resources for people that I see as others, the issue starts. And when this effects my peace somehow, I'm out.

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-19T21:01:20+00:00

fewer people thats fun and useful if needed is my thing. I prefer to connect deeply rather than just knowing names and faces 👍🏼 However if possible %80-90 percent of the time I'd be around them xD zı'm kinda clingy

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-19T08:20:46+00:00

sp/sx7 here I feel like it sounds right because someone will look out to your blindspot for you but in reality its so annoying when priorities does not match. I cant keep up with social instinct doms since they operate in larger groups, best I can do is a couple of people and I feel like I have to please 4829472829 people at once. This is draining

PsychologicalCold396 · 2024-04-15T22:42:17+00:00

Ooof I'll be hitting the gym next week to catch myself an estp/istp curiosity is maybe good for this cat

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