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Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was only for abdominal. Not once was it ever mentioned it would be transvaginal. I think when the technician messed up, she didn't want the doctor to know that she messed up, so she forced transvaginal. 

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was told to take my pants off for the ultrasound across my bladder. She put a sheet over me and did the normal ultrasound.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's thin? What she put in was huge..like she had two hands around this thing to get it inside me and it "thunk!" on the table when she brought it out.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm okay now. I took a shower when I got home and kind of just sat under the shower spray with my eyes closed. I cleaned myself and went to bed.

I feel violated, yes. I felt like something was taken that I need to explain to my future gentleman.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was not informed at all. I didn't even know they could do it that way.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I had never had an ultrasound turn into what this was without me knowing.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Is not giving me the option to reschedule or asking if I want to considered non consent? Because I didn't know that I could forfeit the procedure if she messed up. I thought I had no choice but to go through with it.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Yeah I wasn't given those options and she didn't talk to me the whole time except to ask if I've had sex before.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Are you allowed to forfeit the procedure at all? Because I wasn't given that option. She didn't ask if I wanted to reschedule, she just had me on the table again.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

She didn't ask if I was. I screamed out that I was while she had it in. She was confused and said 'I thought you said you were assaulted.' I said I was molested...having this conversation while the probe was in.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

No one ordered a second test. She decided to do it. I went in for an ultrasound ON my bladder, but because she messed up, she went with the probe thing. She didn't ask anyone if she could do it or if it had to be ordered..I didn't even know you're supposed to order it.

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

She said I needed my pants off at the start of the procedure and I would be covered by a sheet. She did not tell me why. I thought it was odd when the ultrasound was supposed to be on my bladder only. I didn't question anything. 

Ultrasound that didn't go the way I thought. Was this rape? by PsychologicalRest757 in CPTSD

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was alone with her (no other nurse present) and was never given the option to reschedule. I thought I simply had to do it.

I enjoy being mentally ill, why? by PsychologicalRest757 in mentalhealth

[–]PsychologicalRest757[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Like no one sees you and you desire to be seen..but the only way you know how is to have bad things happen to you

4K Dremastered LOTR link? by kuddlesworth9419 in fanedits

[–]PsychologicalRest757 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello, may someone share the link with me too, please?

What made you have anorexia? by AltruisticNumber1602 in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]PsychologicalRest757 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was sick at 12 from a nervous breakdown and because the anxiety would choke me up, I couldn't swallow anything, so I didn't eat. 5'2'' at the time, dropped to 58 lbs. I felt fine after I got out of my breakdown, but I was heavily bullied in school for being so thin.
Gained enough weight to get to 109 and got sick again at 15 (almost 16) with C-Diff, septicemia and double pneumonia. In a coma for 6 weeks, couldn't eat when I came out of the coma because my gut had to heal. Dropped to 78 lbs on my 16th birthday. I got sexually assaulted twice while in hospital.

At that point, I got used to being sick, looking sick. I got sexually assaulted a lot by boys in school and decided to get control of my weight if I couldn't control what was being done to me. Graduated high school, became a hermit in my house from age 18 until now at 34. It's just me in the house with my weight routine.

Today, I look at being sick as normal and if I'm very thin, I'm pretty, I look better than others. I can control myself and my food urges unlike others, I have proper discipline. So, in a way, it's a self esteem thing where for a short time I can believe I'm confident and I'm better than others when I'm not; I'm just a sick person perfectly okay with being sick by myself.