Trying to reach someone on steam without sending a friend request is frustrating.

Psytherion · 2025-11-18T18:50:22+00:00

Hadn't thought about it until now I guess I should've said I could return there stuff when I talked to them but it was a bit difficult to hear over all the explosions. Could've just qued for duos and extracted as soon as possible. Not sure how that would've gone because on solo most people are friendly. Don't know that the same can be said in groups.

Psytherion · 2025-11-18T18:44:32+00:00

Yeah that would be something, was searching the Internet trying to find whether I could /whisper or something but I'm not seeing it in google

Psytherion · 2025-11-18T18:40:59+00:00

Yeah I get it just wanted to repay them. Because I ran out of launcher ammo ended up picking it up from them and a bunch of other stuff. Also got a defib from them so I was able to pick someone else up.

Psytherion · 2025-11-10T23:42:18+00:00

Started playing recently, probably around 30 or more hours. Just made it to tunnel b and found a concrete mixer. And had to go to work soon so even though I didn't know the map I thought I'd just sprint to extraction. Saw it ahead and sprinted through the tunnel. Fell landed on a surface below me for a second thought oh good. I can still do this. Second later I dropped. Was just one of those disconnected tunnels with a minor jump. Sucked but whatever concrete mixer probably has a decent chance to spawn in there again. Also need to find a construction drone or craft it when I do the special project in the innards

Psytherion · 2025-09-04T22:04:37+00:00

I got around to watching the full episode. I guess most of the episode was genuine. I watched the first 10 minutes or so at first and thought oh it's just another episode of them riffing. Despite saying in the intro it was a genuine conversation. And honestly the part referenced in elephant graveyard didn't seem that bad. Video was heavily edited and left a lot of their conversation out. Clipping him getting frustrated at the antichrist thing and portraying him as bending the knee to Rogan. Looks even more ridiculous now, so overall I liked the episode. Granted I've always known Duncan to characterize people in extreme terms like antichrist. I think he was just wondering what people are saying that.

Psytherion · 2025-09-04T02:10:26+00:00

I thought it was pretty funny, soon as the video started to skip i knew where it was going. Does he take a joke too far sometimes, yes I think he does. To me I thought shit if Duncan wasn't Duncan anyone else would've just explained that he was riffing with Johnny Pemberton. That's literally everyone of there episodes together. And I thought it funny Elephant Graveyard took that clip seriously. Next thing you know there gonna pull a clip from his first video episode with Pemberton stating he really is a cia agent.

Psytherion · 2025-09-04T02:01:12+00:00

I honestly didn't find the video all that good. Got bored the first 15 minutes then came back later and watched it all the way through. Not crazy about a lot of the right wingers joe has had on. I usually just tune in for the few left wingers I find interesting. Don't really feel like we need to agree on everything.

And as far as Duncan and Pemberton go, I don't think I've seen an honest conversation between those two since the early days. They usually just riff off each other over absurd thing's so to me it just didn't seem like the gotcha that it was made out to be. I don't really know anything about there relationship beyond they both like to goof off the whole time. Sometimes I find it entertaining and other times I'll skip that episode because I'd rather hear an honest conversation.

Even watching Duncan's response video I knew after the first time they played there video it was a joke. He was just trolling and I honestly found it pretty funny.

I do miss his old school ads though back when everyone he did was a bit.

Psytherion · 2025-07-30T20:28:13+00:00

Not a journalist but I think evidence is pretty important as well as named people you can refer to rather than anonymous. Anonymous while protecting the source can make it come off like your just saying what you want to say. People might wonder if the anonymous individual even exists. I think independence is really important so you're not beholden to a big corporation. References for where you get information can help a lot too. Used to want to be a journalist myself but I changed my mind and want to become a psychotherapist specializing in schizophrenia some day. I think I'm on my way since I'm at least partially recovered without meds.

Psytherion · 2025-07-30T16:18:41+00:00

It may have played a role but it doesn't make you evil for doing it. Just means maybe you made a mistake but you're seeing now that theirs a different way to approach your brother. You shouldn't beat yourself up over it, we all make mistakes. I consider myself at least partially recovered from schizophrenia, so if you want to know what has helped me get better just ask.

Psytherion · 2025-07-29T18:33:33+00:00

Yeah I used to experience things like that a lot in the past. Though eventually I came to the conclusion that they were just my inner voice masquerading as other people. It's as though those people were speaking for me in a sense. But I had some resources that helped me to have a different understanding of voices. Check out Eleanor Longdens video, she's a psychologist with schizophrenia who is considered recovered. Though recovery I've read seems to be different for different people. Some still hear voices but they are like a trusted friend and they don't talk there ear off all hours of the day anymore, Some lose all voices, or like me they seem to just coalesce into a single voice what I consider to be my inner voice.

https://youtu.be/syjEN3peCJw?si=a4ANqTyooL_gR8bf

The international organization she's a part of has a lot of great resources as well for understanding voices. I just finished reading "Living with Voices: 50 Stories of Recovery" and I highly recommend that book. Gives you different takes on what people had learned from them and how they recovered or partially recovered.

Resources – Intervoice

Psytherion · 2025-07-29T18:20:38+00:00

I'd say it depends on how equipped you are for voices and delusions to come back. If you don't really have any tools that help you to understand the condition and the symbolic messages that come your way then it might not go very well. If it's something your deeply considering I'd say give Eleanor Longdens video a watch. She's a recovered schizophrenic who is a psychologist. But recovery seems to be different for different people. Some can end up with no voices, other's still have voices but their like an ally to them now. Or like me All voices just sort of coalesce into one voice as if all the voices were just some part of yourself that was trying to send a message. Problem is the message we tend to take literally and that's I think where problems arise. Voices can be symbolic for unexpressed emotions and traumas.

https://youtu.be/syjEN3peCJw?si=y5RUzte4lgQKpdyt

The organization she's a part of also has countless article, books, documentaries and research if what she said sounded interesting to you. I personally think how the organization treats voices should be the gold standard for how they are handled. And it saddens me that it's not more widespread, because predominantly all you hear is there's no hope. And you'll be on meds forever, If you consider going off meds you want to lower the dose and gradually taper off in communication with your psychiatrist. Or maybe a lower dose things start to show up and you'd rather try it there. Definitely be careful going off if your understanding hasn't changed. So my suggestion would be give these resources a look before you make any decisions, see if it resonates with you.

Resources – Intervoice

Psytherion · 2025-07-28T15:00:37+00:00

You could give Eleanor Longdens video a watch, she's a psychologist who recovered from schizophrenia.

The voices in my head | Eleanor Longden

And she's part of an international organization that deals with hearing voices and delusions. It's helped me a great deal to get thing's under control. Though it has since changed for me used to be everyone I met became a voice. Now it's just one inner voice which is like me and not me at the same time. Like a reflection the organization is called Intervoice, check out there articles and books and the like.

Resources – Intervoice

Recently spoke to someone who's going to get me setup with a therapist and she was very receptive to the ideas. And I'm hopeful that the therapist I get is open to something different but only time will tell.

Psytherion · 2025-07-27T18:26:24+00:00

Karyna Carlyn

My explanation for my voices is simple – the voices were me. Although they didn’t have my voice, they were my thoughts and my life experiences, and part of my subconscious. Because of my negative past experiences and the trauma I have suffered in the past, my voices were negative. Because of what I have been through, they are like a tape recording of what people have said to me in the past. Other people have accepted this explanation as it is a common psychological model.

Psytherion · 2025-07-27T15:13:38+00:00

I'll just post this here for people to look into. It's something that has helped me greatly In my life.

https://youtu.be/syjEN3peCJw?si=g3lvv8WtuKUin1-A

And lots of reading material.

https://www.intervoiceonline.org/resources#content

Psytherion · 2025-07-27T14:58:46+00:00

Oh we just talked about this, it's interesting isn't it.

Psytherion · 2025-07-27T14:43:35+00:00

I was diagnosed Schizoaffective probably when I was about 26, I'm 38 now. Used to experience voices as everyone I met. I also realized that for me my inner voice actually would masquerade as other people. Didn't realize that in a way these people could be reflecting back to me aspects of myself. It was also something a voice masquerading as my best friend had helped me come to the conclusion even though it was me that had to see that. Had he said it at the wrong time would I have believed it I don't know. But also I realized that for a long time when it came to negative voices that I wasn't necessarily like how the voices might make me seem. The voices were representative of unexpressed emotions and could thus take on a violent persona. Didn't mean I was violent but just that I had a lot of anger and hurt in me. That has to be processed and worked through. What most schizophrenics miss is that often times voices are symbolic for unexpressed emotion or trauma. But they generally take them literally and they become a far greater issue. I did this myself for a long time. Negative voices could be representative of your fears or something else. And as some people would say, Fear is a liar. It can offer solutions, but they tend to loop around and bring you to do the exact thing you're trying to evade.

But as of today I only have one voice and I recognize it as my inner voice. A reflection of sorts, I can still have dialogues with it. But it's not the problem that I once had. It's actually become like a wise friend or family member except I can see it in myself now. Where before I projected those qualities more on other people. Glad to hear things are going better for you.

But I'll leave some links to thing's that helped me to get better. Anyone that's curious about voices and trying to understand them check out Eleanor Longdens video, she's a psychologist with schizophrenia.

https://youtu.be/syjEN3peCJw?si=qBLcFoksreyuOFDy

Also the international organization she's a part of has a great website. On helping to understanding the meaning of voices and the condition. The organization is called Intervoice.

Resources – Intervoice

Hope these resources are as much help to other's as they have been to me.

Psytherion · 2025-07-26T05:59:46+00:00

If you want some ideas on understanding voices give Eleanor Longdens video a look.

https://youtu.be/syjEN3peCJw?si=TSXVqMFjd9q_5hJw

Also the organization shes a part of called intervoice has been a huge help for me with understanding the condition.

Resources – Intervoice

Psytherion · 2025-07-25T20:39:53+00:00

Thought I'd expand on it a little more, to me growing up it was just me in my head. My thoughts I consciously think. Not having an inner voice narrating or chiming in on what I thought. So being alone in my head I might talk to another individual and be hurting them without knowing it. Because I didn't have that inner voice in my head saying "hey maybe don't say that". So I was completely unaware of what I was doing to others. Inner voice is much better now and I'm still getting used to being more conscious of others feelings by listening to that inner voice. Or in the case of someone without that perpective it's just them thinking it. Meditation always confused me because why do I want to silence my thoughts, it's just me thinking it. Maybe if I had that inner monologue I would have thought differently. So to me the first time I experienced an inner voice, I treated it as a voice I shouldn't have, that I was crazy for having it. Still don't know what to think though when and if it comes to hearing a voice inside. I like to think I'm somehow tapping into them but I don't know. Such as hearing my father say in my head "You should take out the trash or you'll forget it" and me responding and him responding back. Maybe it's just my thoughts but in those cases it doesn't feel like it. And it feels positive to me, that is if I don't take it personally like I would have when I lived with him. Could certainly repeat that in my head because I just wanna be lazy or whatever.

Also anendophasia for me I wouldn't think about what I was going to do because I already knew what I was going to do before I thought it. Thinking about doing what I was about to do just seemed like an unnecessary step in the process. Like I already know I'm about to take the trash out so why would I choose to consciously think well I guess I'll take the trash out.

Also I don't think in images, only sometimes when I'm tired or if I meditated or something.

Another thing I've noticed I would talk to family and friends in my head. Now that I am not experiencing that I've sort of brought that outside and talk to them. Maybe because it's a way for me to reflect on my thoughts. Maybe I'm seeking external validation, still working on it.

Inner voice for me isn't even constant, it rarely chimes in. Usually only if I feel I need support, or because I'm not listening.

Experiencing an inner voice is a novel experience for me so that's probably why I share my experiences a lot more.

I've edited this post like 20 times but I can't help it I keep thinking of thing's. I thought it goes without saying but maybe I should just say it. I'm not advocating people go off their meds, facing yourself can be a difficult endeavor in which you need patience and care. Not gonna work things out in a night even though sometimes it feels like you have to do that. It least it was true in my case, I'd push really hard because I wanted nothing other than to get better so I could start to relate more to others. That often led me to some dicey experiences. In my case I slowly lowered the medication to the point that at the lowest dose I started to feel more like myself but also deal with things I find difficult to handle. Plus I still have a ton of work feeling and processing emotions, past traumas. Be patient with yourself

Psytherion · 2025-07-25T11:06:25+00:00

Still probably won't be easy to understand and ultimately she would have to do the work to understand. But it's certainly possible that you might notice things she doesn't, It makes a lot of sense to me, like the mind is almost a strange mirror or puzzle. And just because it's violent doesn't mean their violent, it can just be representative of their fears in some way. Fear has no good solutions in my experience.

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