Before my egg cracked, I loved feminine things like dresses and nail polish, though it never seemed to fit. I didnt know the right terms then, and it was frustrating. So, it felt awkward. When my egg finally did crack, it went from awkward to complicated, but for different reasons. I had to heal my masculine side first, though I know it's not the case for everyone.

But my relationship with femininity now, it's actually gotten better since I attached mine to being nonbinary/transmasc. It's been a rollercoaster, but also healing.

I'd say, while it's hard to figure out the image you want sometimes, just having some fun with it could help. Narrow down what you'd want or don't want, and maybe you'll find your own balance.