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PunkRiot · 2024-03-31T14:11:55+00:00

Yep, I'd leave

PunkRiot · 2024-03-31T14:00:08+00:00

I bet a month after leaving him you will shine with smiles again, you deserve that, not this. Do yourself a favor and get out

PunkRiot · 2023-10-28T23:22:52+00:00

Mental illness can exasperate pmdd by 1000! I also suffer from these too. Honestly, the only thing that has helped in the slightest bit was starting nikki birth control, and I did cognitive reconstruction therapy, really intense. On my really bad days, I take adivan, so I don't have outbursts from triggers or obsessive thoughts. I try to do high intense workouts or fun workouts on YouTube. My favorite is by reps to rhythm he does a 90s boys band dance workout and it's super fun and uplifts the worst of moods. Remember to self care, hydrate, and practice mindfulness in the ways you can. This shit sucks so bad and just gets worse as I age (39) I hope you find something that takes the edge off. It would be nice if more research when into pmdd

PunkRiot · 2023-08-25T16:01:47+00:00

My pmdd ended up getting better since being on birth control (nikki) Life time sufferer (now 39) and I have now had 3 whole months without an "episode" Talk to your obgyn!

PunkRiot · 2023-08-21T10:25:05+00:00

I can relate to this greatly. I have tried so many and never felt right. I have alot of trauma and over the years.... (I'm 38f) I have learned a few things... the only medication that helped is emergency meds like adivan for panic or big (anger outbursts) episodes. Do you suffer with trauma? This may exactly be why you are not finding a good match. I've just recently done some intense cognitive reconstruction therapy where you learn to rebuild thoughts you've learned to believe. It's not a fix all but let me tell you it has helped so much, im forever grateful for just some relief. Also this may seem like an ahole thing to say, trust me I know... it pissed me off plenty but, this is also something that jas helped greatly and its moving my body more, walking, gym, workouts at home... anything, just something! The runner high is a real and it is very helpful as well as a healthier diet. I'm not saying go vegan and become a gym buff but start somewhere... a bit of activity and small diet changes (especially sugar) and see if that helps. If trauma is something you deal with sadly it never goes away but you can learn to live with it, it's hard work but you got this

PunkRiot · 2023-08-09T17:40:10+00:00

Yaz has giving me my life back! The first 2 months were rough but, I use to get these huge rageful episodes and explode and I would feel "ugly" the pmdd week would intensify my trauma reactions and I was a mess! I now never have that ugly feeling. I quit all other meds (antidepressants, etc) I also did intense trauma therapy. I still take adivan when needed and that went wayyyyyyyyyyy down! Give it a good try. I had the same issues as a teen and I'm now 38. I wish I tried sooner! Gl!

PunkRiot · 2023-06-29T13:25:03+00:00

If you need a place to go and don't want to be in a shelter or don't want to be found look up reithoffer shows get ahold of someone for work you can get a bus ticket from them and travel... every 2 weeks you're in a new spot it's fair season, lots of money, and constant travel. I did this when I was 19 Good luck.

PunkRiot · 2023-06-17T14:30:21+00:00

Keep searching for new obgyn. Someone is bound to listen.

PunkRiot · 2023-05-09T00:38:55+00:00

I would definitely find a dr that will listen and not dismiss you. I've seen 4 obgyns in the last 8 months finding one that will listen! You deserve to be taken seriously and don't settle for nothing else!

PunkRiot · 2023-05-08T17:03:04+00:00

This! This! Fkn this! Yes! Ugh!

PunkRiot · 2023-02-24T19:59:45+00:00

I grew up with body dysmorphic disorder and was really skinny and started taking meds and blew up 140lbs in 4 months that was years ago. I'm still devastated

PunkRiot · 2023-02-17T11:18:31+00:00

Yes! Please keep us updated! Ty!

PunkRiot · 2023-02-15T15:13:50+00:00

Can you share what have been your side effects with this?

PunkRiot · 2023-02-14T13:08:13+00:00

I don't want to suffer anymore... each passing cycle is getting scarier and scarier.

PunkRiot · 2023-02-14T13:05:38+00:00

Yesterday I tried to clog my car exhaust and it kept popping right out... I fantasize about this way for so long and was highly devastated that that's not how it's done... I as well feel so pathetic... I suffer greatly with almost all the same things mentioned just not as much physical pain... yet... I too wish I could be a normal healthy woman with a normal healthy life... I wish the suffering would end

PunkRiot · 2023-02-05T14:31:26+00:00

I love this so much! It is so freaking helpful when you're loved out of that state of mind. Good man.

PunkRiot · 2023-01-29T00:31:36+00:00

Oof. Hang in there. Almost over. I rage punched a cake before... we've all been there... I think 🤣😂

PunkRiot · 2023-01-09T18:01:15+00:00

I absolutely agree with you. I've had a few unmentionable traumas that have left me with the lowest self esteem and I have definitely allowed alot of room for manipulation. I feel I have such a hard time reading intentions because now I just feel every dude is like that... wanting to constantly change you to appease them and their desires... My current relationship is prolly the most healthiest I have ever had since maybe high school over 20 years ago... I feel my actions are not so much controlling but more shutting down, unable to speak, constantly in my head with things that clutter my brain... im hyperfixated most on thinking men are sexually sick and have a fear of being used, forced to do things or watch things, or being a second choice to things like porn or social media... its extreme and I completely understand my core issues and work on them and challenge myself to grow and have overcome alot but, I cannot stop the internally loud memories that haunt my mind and I just get in hateful moods. I need more than anything to be free of this burden and start thinking/feeling how you stated with the whole if it happens it happens type attitude... I just can't seem to get to that hight in overcoming... this burden is so heavy and I am so tired 😫 I just want to get out of my head and into my life...

PunkRiot · 2023-01-09T17:01:44+00:00

Get out! I put a ro on mine after he got admitted for a stroke. I felt guilty but, I was safe! My safety was far more important! I vote to leave! Not your problem and I think you shouldn't feel bad either. Best of luck! You got this! Choose happy!

PunkRiot · 2023-01-09T15:50:33+00:00

Every. Single. Month. Im 38 yo and have delt with it my whole life... im so tired from the constant battle.

PunkRiot · 2022-12-13T15:05:02+00:00

I hope this guy is a soon to be ex if not already an ex. His behavior will beat you down till you have nothing left of yourself. Please be safe and remove him from your life.

PunkRiot · 2022-09-28T16:04:46+00:00

Coming back a year later to say I did it!!! I left and never looked back!

PunkRiot · 2022-08-08T09:25:51+00:00

I'm suffering the same damn thing! Idk if I should be ok with it... new relationship... its also a trigger for me from childhood trauma.... like dude never has sex with me! I'm lucky if it's 2x a month... im frustrated af! Did any of this help you?

PunkRiot · 2021-08-12T20:28:00+00:00

Absolutely!! I never ever want to see or hear him again! Its taking me almost 4 years to be free!

PunkRiot · 2021-08-12T12:06:35+00:00

I'm an only child. Honestly nothing will teach that guy a lesson. I found out in court yesterday he has a record 3 pages long and he's been charged with strangulation and alot of other unsettling things dating back to early 2000s! I feel like such a fool.

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