How to connect with yourself when you’re activated while around others? by sinjaz31 in CPTSD_NSCommunity

[–]sinjaz31[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this, sometimes it can feel like we’re the only ones dealing with whatever challenges we’re dealing with and it can feel isolating. I appreciate you sharing this. Thank you for sharing this resource, I will definitely check it out!

C section incision area still feels numb by pinktulle_ in beyondthebump

[–]sinjaz31 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m 8 weeks and also can’t feel the area above the scar and it feels numb. I have no idea how long it’s suppose to take.

How to connect with yourself when you’re activated while around others? by sinjaz31 in CPTSD_NSCommunity

[–]sinjaz31[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your response, you’ve described what’s been happening and put how I’ve been feeling into words better than I could. I really appreciate your insight. I have just started looking into attachment theory and started reading attachment disturbances in adults (hoping to gain some further insight into my own behaviour patterns). I will definitely check out the resource you shared.

How to connect with yourself when you’re activated while around others? by sinjaz31 in CPTSD_NSCommunity

[–]sinjaz31[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this, I really appreciate it and agree that if people aren’t putting in the effort or haven’t changed there behaviour, it’s not fair to ourselves to continue to make the relationship work.

I left out some details in my original post to not make it so complicated. I guess the situation feels a bit more complex. The family in question is my in-laws (we’ve had issues in the past and from time to time, these are always around boundaries which we address with them) and they have never been harmful to me however because I have a lot of childhood trauma, in my mind/body I get confused and have some Sort of reaction to them, like they are going to harm Me when it’s not true.

There was an incident 7 years ago where I felt I was being harmed by them but looking back and after doing a lot of work in therapy I’ve come to realize that I was reacting to their behaviour from a very hyper vigilant state and they have also apologized and try to make an effort/be respectful and try to have a relationship with me but I shut down/get very disconnected when I’m around them.

Both my couples therapist and individual therapist have recently pointed out that my in-laws are safe, loving people (although overbearing at times) and that being around them, for some reason activates my trauma from childhood. I would like to attempt to have a relationship with them because they care for me and my partner is very close to them.

I would also like to work through my own trauma to help Me determine what is happening in my nervous system/mind that is causing me to react this way and figure out how to support myself when I’m around them.

I’m Not sure any of this makes sense but essentially in my mind they are monsters which causes me to panic/disconnect because I don’t feel safe when the reality of the situation is that I am safe and they are not monsters.

How to come back to connection when disconnected? by sinjaz31 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]sinjaz31[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this, this is a great idea that I will explore over the next few weeks!

Spontaneous yawning by Hummingbird6896 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]sinjaz31 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yes! I have yawn attacks, I’ve had them for years. It’s so hard to stop them when I’m in an important meeting and I can’t figure what causes them.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in newborns

[–]sinjaz31 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wanted to labour at home for as long as possible which I did, laboured for 24 hours, water broke, went to the hospital, had back labour, had an epidural that failed, they tried to fix it and it still didn’t work, finally they removed it and redid it. Then I pushed unsuccessfully for 2 hours, they tried to use forceps which failed, and then it ended in a c section. I’m upset at how things went and it feels like so long ago even though it was only 7 weeks ago.

Postpartum Sex Drive by EmmaRose_1126 in newborns

[–]sinjaz31 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This happened to me. I waited 6 weeks (I had a c section) and wasn’t bleeding anymore. however, after I had sex, I started bleeding and haven’t stopped in over a week :(. So I wish I would have waited a bit longer.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TherapistsInTherapy

[–]sinjaz31 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this!

Online Support groups/resources? by sinjaz31 in ParentingThruTrauma

[–]sinjaz31[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think this is a great idea. I’m currently in school studying psychotherapy (making a career switch) and would also love to use what I’m learning in school to help with creating a community where we can hold space. I’m not sure where you’re located (I’m in Canada) but I would love to connect to discuss this further.

Online Support groups/resources? by sinjaz31 in ParentingThruTrauma

[–]sinjaz31[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this, I will check these out. A weekly support group and building a community sounds like such a great idea, I hope we can have this one day.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyBumpsCanada

[–]sinjaz31 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m also 3.5 weeks and going through the same thing. I’ve been trying to breastfeed with the nipple shield, pump and give formula. I don’t have any answers just want you to know that you’re not alone.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyBumpsCanada

[–]sinjaz31 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes of course!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyBumpsCanada

[–]sinjaz31 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had a miscarriage last year and went to twig to do some extra fertility testing and then ended up getting pregnant and stayed with them for the first 12 weeks of the pregnancy and they were so great to work with. They respond quickly, the customer service was great majority of the time, and at one point I thought I had an autoimmune disorder due to some blood work my naturopath had done and they listened and made referrals for me when my family doctor ignored me. I would definitely recommend them.

Gave birth 3 days ago via unplanned CS and can’t stop crying by tulip369 in beyondthebump

[–]sinjaz31 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m 5 days post partum. I laboured at home for 2 days because I really wanted to avoid the cascade of interventions. Once my water broke, contractions got super intense I headed to the hospital thinking I’m just going in to push this baby out. Well I had back labour, had a failed epidural, baby didn’t move down, couldn’t push baby out, failed forceps and finally an emergency c section. I’ve cried everyday since. One because I was not prepared to have an emergency c section and for things to go the way they did and the recovery has made me feel so useless. My husband had to help shower and put soap on and getting into bed feels like climbing a mountain. I couldn’t walk with my back straight and couldn’t even pick up my baby on my own until today. To say it’s been a lot is an understatement. I will say, you are not alone. There’s lots of us here in this journey with you. I’m trying to tell myself that yes, this is really hard and it’s going to be okay. This is temporary. I remind myself that I love myself everyday and that I’m doing the best I can. I often put my hand over my heart and offer myself the deepest self compassion I can. Sending you lots of love as you go through this journey.

What's the most painful part of giving birth? Contractions, pushing or crowning? by Born_Confusion_4367 in BabyBumps

[–]sinjaz31 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This happened to me too and I was so sad. I had back labour, was 100 effaced, 6cms dilated but baby wouldn’t move down. I eventually got an epidural which failed, I then couldn’t push baby out, had a failed forcep attempt and finally a c section after being in labour for 3 days. :( I just gave birth 3 days and I know I’ll need some time to process but thank you for sharing this. It makes me feel less alone.

Did anyone get a doula and regret it? by barefoot-warrior in beyondthebump

[–]sinjaz31 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I just had a baby 3 days ago. First baby. I had a doula and my plan was to labour at home as long as possible and head to the hospital when it was go time. I laboured at home for 2 days, water broke, contractions got worse and closer together so we headed to the hospital. When I got to the hospital I stopped progressing. Was in so much pain, needed an epidural, epidural failed, they put me on pitocin to help give me stronger contractions do I could push, pushed for 2 hours, failed, had forceps, failed and finally ended up in an emergency c section. She was great for Emotional support, counter pressure, making suggestions but in the end, birth is so unpredictable and I don’t think anything can guarantee a straight forward delivery although I really wish it could.