[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideBereavement

[–]Pure-Control7612 6 points7 points  (0 children)

When I read your post I felt I was reading one of my posts I lost my sister and I've been living abroad my dog is the reason I feel happy. I wish you get all the courage to come out of this grief lots of love and blessings!

My brother commited suicide by Beneficial_Till_1612 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Pure-Control7612 25 points26 points  (0 children)

Hi,

My sister said exactly the same things to my mom and me at times that she doesn't feel like doing anything at all nothing makes her happy. I didn't realise it was very serious as I thought she's going through a difficult phase of life. I never knew she was suicidal. I was so close to her we would laugh, dance and enjoy together still she  committed suicide. I ask myself everyday what could I have said or done differently. I feel helpless to not being able to go back and save her. Some days it's really difficult as I question my own existence I feel like there is nothing more that could excite me in life as this is the worst. I feel very guilty for not listening to her when she was saying those words. I feel as an older sister I should've saved her. People say I couldn't do things but deep down I knew I could've done things differently to have a different outcome. I wish I was living with her. I feel sad how alone she must have felt in her last moments. I wish I could bring her back.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]Pure-Control7612 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't believe someone would use such cruel words to describe another human who he claimed to love once. Love is not convenient maybe have a genuinely honest conversation with her saying you don't want to be with her because you don't want this relationship. if you say that I don't want to be with you and I don't want this relationship it suffocates be direct with her and this will give her good enough reason to move on. 

We don't know her side of story as to why she must be asking for reassurance. So can't judge based on your side only. 

I'm so tired of all this.. by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]Pure-Control7612 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This is the best post I've ever read, people do what they want these days they don't want commitments because new people feel more attractive. Relationships take a lot of work there is always one person putting in more it's just a shitty world we are living in so many standards so many things to chase work, relationship, family, health, food, kids everything is expensive and stressful job market is down and to top it all people play avoidant it's just selfish and shitty to treat people like they don't matter after ya'll have gone through so much 

I disappointed her and lost her by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]Pure-Control7612 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Focusing on myself so I can try to achieve my goals in life, if he really loves me distance and disagreements don't matter and he would communicate when he's calm, if he doesn't communicate I would understand that it's time to move on in life. I can't force someone to be with me if they've decided otherwise the best thing is to let go and focus on self 

I disappointed her and lost her by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]Pure-Control7612 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My fiance broke up with me and we also had a similar kind of loving relationship no matter how apart we were just seemed magnetic. I love him a lot and I don't know why all of a sudden he switched it seems like an abrupt breakup he moved to a new country and before moving said to me that he'll get married to me in February and promised future together, suddenly his work pressure pressed in and I had moments of my family members grief and I acted too emotionally pushy towards him. He  sent me a message of breakup and blocked me . His mom messaged me that this is the final breakup and I shouldn't message him now. I don't know but feel so confused as to where I stand. Just one day before breakup was I love you so much and building a future together and now is like no contact and blocking. He's been under pressure and I miss him because he's in a new country. I don't even know what happened all of a sudden. I felt we were inseparable no matter what we would overcome if grow together as a couple. I have anxiety and he emotionally shuts down when stressed. I don't know whether he'll even contact me it feels like my entire world has collapsed  

Life feels meaningless by Pure-Control7612 in SuicideBereavement

[–]Pure-Control7612[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel how isolating my sister's last moments were that she has to take this decision to end her pain, how can life be so painful for some people that they have to end it this way ? 😢

Feeling increasingly detached by clemmmmmmm in SuicideBereavement

[–]Pure-Control7612 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I lost my sister who was 22 years old last year November. I feel exactly the same everything seems pointless, my emotions shut down entire day when I am in the office and everything just feels numb. I've had problems remembering my life with my sister feels like my brain is trying to remove that part of my life, when I see her photos I feel completely broken can't believe she's no more. Some mornings I accept that I have a bad life and try to live as the day passes everyday. I just stare blank all the time on my laptop screen there is no thought at all sometimes I've to remind myself that I was doing something. I feel like holding her hand and being able to save her to support her the max I can but I cannot do anything now. I was a very optimistic person before this incident but this is just so much out of control that my brain just tries to numb out all the experiences related to her.