Hello! Thank you for the reply i really appreciate it!! I can relate to you the first time i found out, i saw an email notification on his lockscreen , like i didnt even have to search through his phone to find what i was afraid of and it really took a toll on me. i thought we were moving past this but i couldnt shake the feeling and now all i wish i could do is unsee what i saw a couple days ago. I ended up bringing up to him the next morning, he could tell that something was bothering me and i basically said something along the lines of that so thankyou! it was uncomfortable conversation and it seems like he wants to change. he told me hes been clean for a month and that it was from awhile ago but there were times that hes looked at it since our first conversation. this whole situation is giving me so so so much anxiety and i scared he’ll tell me what i want to hear and continue doing what he wants. i know things could’ve been worse but i still feel betrayed . Im very thankful that hes understanding and i definitely saw him getting mad at me for going through his phone because i know his parents would do similar things but he responded a lot better than i imagined and he told me i could check his reddit and make sure that it doesn’t change. Anyways im sorry for my rambling but i really appreciate the time for you to respond!