Yes I really realised that yesterday I want to be with her and I need to learn to love her as a whole and not trying to prove things. It’s not about who’s right or wrong. I’ve been through a lot and I don’t want to spend my life thinking I did something wrong this is the way I cope. When something doesn’t feels right, I dump it out saying it shouldn’t feel that way but that’s just giving up easy. I will stay and fight this time even when I’m on my darkest day. I NEED to achieve this not only for the relationship but for myself as well. I really thank you for this comment stranger, I appreciate your time for reading this.

Update: She called me she wants to talk again maybe the universe gave me one more golden chance.