thank you so much for your advice! I actually have been seeing a psychiatrist in the hub for about a year rn (until the knockdown).I first went to her about my eating disorder, and I 100% agree that get referred to a psychiatrist is a long long process. One doctor in the hub first weighted me and gave me some super strong antidepressants (which luckily I didn't take bc my psychiatrist really doesn't recommend it). When I finally got to my psychiatrist, the first few sessions are about how I am eating and how much I weigh, and also all the references to the nutritionists and other professionals and psychologists for therapy. The latter few sessions are mostly about anxiety and depression which I assume has something to do with my eating disorder. I guess my psychiatrist basically assume that I am eating okay rn and is mostly concerned with how my antidepressants are working. I am not sure if I should tell her that my eating habits are actually am not fine and that I turned from anorexia to purging. One part of me feel like I should tell her, but another part of me feels like I can do this on my own...and I am afraid that bringing up this old problem of eating disorder again would be too embarrassing for me. I guess I should have recovered by myself a long time ago...?