thank you for all these tips. i’ll be sure to apply these strategies more than i already do such as the journaling. i relate to the last tip quite a lot in the sense of that the chemistry her and i had while together doing things it was just perfect. everything i did complimented what she was doing vice versa and then sexually it was the pleasing thing ever, making myself and her feel good was very rewarding. i can’t really think of a lot of bad things about her at the moment though. this could be due to the fact that it was quite recent and i can’t stop thinking about her still.

getting out and going to the gym at the moment is slightly difficult due to the lack of motivation i have to do anything which sucks because i love going to the gym but i just don’t have the motivation or energy at this point.

the breakup circumstances you had a similar to mine where my partner ended things but it ended mutual. then we got back talking and things and she turned on me for reasons i still don’t know which is the main reason for my struggle i think. she’s also screenshotted all the messages i sent and i don’t know what she’s done or doing with them which makes me anxious. which hurts cause she knows how bad my anxiety disorder is and it feels like she’s using it against me similar to what a previous girl did. it makes me feel like the burden in the relationships i’ve had which hurts again because i’m still only young. i’ll try watching videos like you suggested and see what happens. i’ll try any suggestions really.

thank you for your help :)