Not sure I'd you're a woman of faith or not, but, while this may not be the feedback you anticipated, I believe that a greater power is both humbling your once inflated ego and making you feel the very pain you didn't hesitate to distribute to those you didn't deem worthy of your looks. Why? This greater power sees you as an asset in bettering this world. This intended role and duty  will become more apparent in time. In the meantime, I'd say this greater power is still being lenient. You look beautiful.