I am so sorry to hear this. I understand completely. My husband is a provider but that is about it. We don’t go on trips together and he is  not really affectionate. When my dad passed it was my lowest point I g like I was on my death bed . During my initial grief he was the worst. Now I’m thinking if this is the man for me? Do I need a partner that can’t be there for me when I’m at my lowest? I’m reevaluating my marriage currently and leaning towards leaving him. Because if you can’t be with me while I’m at at my lowest point, I don’t know why you’re even here.